I'm completely angsting about Alex in my paper-and-pen diary.  The conclusion drawn is that I'm ACTUALLY angsting about school but I feel powerless about school whereas my social life is something infinitely more manageable for me because I'm like a genius at people and so I'm picking at my insecurities so I can make them big and scarier that ( Read more... )

I'm 21! I have been for a couple weeks now, and I have appropriately drank until sickness so I've done my duty as birthday girl. However, birthdays make me sad. I hate getting older now and not having anything to show for it. I'm not even a semester away from graduating with my bachelors degree, because I switched majors in the eleventh hour. I'm ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in the bedroom my sister and I share whenever we're both at my parent's. It's mostly hers, I have a loft bed over her bookshelves and desk and that's it, so I'm poking through her yearbooks and photo albums and feeling bad about myself ( Read more... )

I feel like I was possibly disingenuous with my last post.  Yes, being a teenager sucks.  Yes, being not-a-teenager is so much fucking better I swear.  But it's not like everything's perfect.  Your personal issues don't just magically go away when you turn twenty.  It's just then your hormones die down, and EVERYTHING seems a little less intense ( Read more... )

I've spent the last few months writing in my Moleskines instead of on this journal. I've been angsting like a motherfucker and I really couldn't see myself putting anything coherent on here that would be worth reading ( Read more... )

Mr. Jon is hitting on me on facebook. It's kinda funny, but he does that IRL so I'm not taking it for face value. He's being his special type of friendly ( Read more... )

I am alive. The drama in my life sucks. that's basically the update I can give.

I am, however, going to prom with a best friend and doing sneaky stuff for the purpose of complete good.

You all love me <3

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If I was as innocent as a Care Bear, I wonder if I'd live through this drama.

If it ever happened at all.

I think my life is really heading for some interesting turns now.

Oh whatever.

"A life never lived is not a life at all"

All my really emo posts about kyle have been on myspace.

One day, I will cut and paste all those entries here, for consistency.

under a cut, of course.