I'm completely angsting about Alex in my paper-and-pen diary.  The conclusion drawn is that I'm ACTUALLY angsting about school but I feel powerless about school whereas my social life is something infinitely more manageable for me because I'm like a genius at people and so I'm picking at my insecurities so I can make them big and scarier that ( Read more... )

This has seriously been my worst semester yet. I've skipped soooo mannnyyyy classes because my teachers don't give a fuck and neither do I, and my grades MAY be reflecting that. I'm skipping my 8AM, however, to study for 2 exams I have today that I am seriously under-prepared for. One of which is the lab practical FOR that 8AM. I NEED at least a 75 ( Read more... )

I'm 21! I have been for a couple weeks now, and I have appropriately drank until sickness so I've done my duty as birthday girl. However, birthdays make me sad. I hate getting older now and not having anything to show for it. I'm not even a semester away from graduating with my bachelors degree, because I switched majors in the eleventh hour. I'm ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in the bedroom my sister and I share whenever we're both at my parent's. It's mostly hers, I have a loft bed over her bookshelves and desk and that's it, so I'm poking through her yearbooks and photo albums and feeling bad about myself ( Read more... )

I feel like I was possibly disingenuous with my last post.  Yes, being a teenager sucks.  Yes, being not-a-teenager is so much fucking better I swear.  But it's not like everything's perfect.  Your personal issues don't just magically go away when you turn twenty.  It's just then your hormones die down, and EVERYTHING seems a little less intense ( Read more... )

I'm not even going to bother to update on what's happened since my last post. It's been a year! A lot has happened!

But I have been browsing through my livejournal after I got a lovely comment from someone who found my journal through de.lic.ious and liked it a lot. Which is actually amazing because I don't even use that site so I KNOW I never ( Read more... )

Things with Alex are still well, relationship-wise. Unfortunately his work is not doing well at all. I'm worried about him, because he's not earning enough money to support himself, and things are getting dire. He's got a support system, and his new friends are trying to arrange either to give him a cut of their commisions or to find him a new job ( Read more... )

I've recently gotten an iPhone 3GS and I've been going pretty crazy with the apps. After reading TFLN on my phone (and yes bought the $ 0.99 app, I pay for convenience and cohesion in information relay) I decided it would be best to hunt down a very specific kind of app: one that details emergencies college-age youth (or those who behave like ( Read more... )

I have a friend who's 21, an alcoholic, smokes pot incessantly, cuts, and is a poorly recovered bulimic/anorexic who's going through a divorce ( Read more... )

I've just lost over 400 pictures from my computer and I just noticed today and I have no idea how it happened and I'm completely in shock and how can this happen? All my pictures from Junior Year, all my senior pictures from before november and all these other things and how the fuck can this happen ( Read more... )