It's the last two weeks of my college life, hopefully. I can say that it's hell. There's this looming feeling of death hanging over my head because there's not a single light at the end of the dark tunnel shit. There is no certainty that you will pass. No certainty that you will graduate. Honestly, I'm afraid. I'm extremely worried that things won' ( Read more... )

 I feel a bit ignored and lonely today. But it's fine. I won't think more into it no.

 You try. You've always been a social outcast. Always one who people never responded to...always one out of the loop. No one picks you for groups, no one remembers to invite you. You're troubled and they won't notice at all. You go to other people and they tell you that you should, well reach out more. You do...but the risk just grows. The more you ( Read more... )

 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

 I just realized how sad and lonely I am. How I can't really fit in anymore and just...I don't know. I'm tired. Here  I go again. Tired....always tired. It's like a long nightmare that doesn't seem to end. I want to wake up from all of this. I want to be someone better. I'm not good enough. I'm not even up to par to who I'm supposed to be...This is ( Read more... )

I'm coping ( Read more... )

 AH THIS PLACE IS SHIT REALLY. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE. SOMEONE JUST TAKE ME AWAY FROM ALL THIS SHIT. SWIPE ME FROM THIS FUCKING WORLD AND JUST LET ME DISAPPEAR ( Read more... )

 So lately things has been quite difficult. Passing things and even just drawing makes things very difficult. I haven't been sleeping nor have I been eating properly at all. I don't feel a thing. I'm numb. I'm cold. I find myself staring and doing nothing. Heck I'm not even in the mood for ice cream!!! I do go out with friends, because I know ( Read more... )

 I need to get myself fixed.

It's almost 8am and I haven't slept nor have I started working.

I should start picking myself up and putting myself together.

This is scaring me.

 Let's just say it's been about a day or two since the break up and I can safely say the tears did stop. I can say "we broke up" without tearing up and feeling like my heart was slowly being crushed. I wonder if he's the same. I doubt it though. I know he's still all torn up ( Read more... )