036.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
This is not good at all. I haven't even recovered and shit and there's something new to carry on my shoulders again. It just keeps getting heavier. I really might go and break down for real. Yesterday night was actually kind of scary. I think I ended up spacing out without realizing and everything turned numb and light headed and trembly...all I wanted was to go to sleep. I gave up completely.
Right now....I don't know anymore. I don't know how to handle anything anymore. I did what my friend told me, to explain why and all but the professor just told me that that's not an excuse...emotional instability apparently isn't an excuse...so if you get depressed and end up not submitting they'll fail you with no mercy. Ahh this isn't going to do any good for me. I think I'll get worse...maybe I'll really go crazy now. I've lost the motivation to work all the more. If she fails me then fine...I guess I don't have much of a choice. I don't have an excuse and my sincere and true excuse isn't acceptable.
This is bad...oh well...
I'll just have to try my best to stay alive?
Though not waking up....
Is all the more enticing right now.
This is not good at all. I haven't even recovered and shit and there's something new to carry on my shoulders again. It just keeps getting heavier. I really might go and break down for real. Yesterday night was actually kind of scary. I think I ended up spacing out without realizing and everything turned numb and light headed and trembly...all I wanted was to go to sleep. I gave up completely.
Right now....I don't know anymore. I don't know how to handle anything anymore. I did what my friend told me, to explain why and all but the professor just told me that that's not an excuse...emotional instability apparently isn't an excuse...so if you get depressed and end up not submitting they'll fail you with no mercy. Ahh this isn't going to do any good for me. I think I'll get worse...maybe I'll really go crazy now. I've lost the motivation to work all the more. If she fails me then fine...I guess I don't have much of a choice. I don't have an excuse and my sincere and true excuse isn't acceptable.
This is bad...oh well...
I'll just have to try my best to stay alive?
Though not waking up....
Is all the more enticing right now.