oh what a week.
we almost got kicked out of our apartment today, but were saved by our way nice super.

i really have nothing interesting to say, besides for the fact that i love my life.
and i miss matthew.
and i cried for the first time in weeks last night.
and even though im on the mend, i still hurt over him.

love isnt a choice.

oh man, i am so tired today. but luckily i come bearing GREAT news. johnny got signed to R&L modeling agency a couple days ago! i am so soooo fucking proud of him. i know he's super excited as well, as he should be ( Read more... )

the first words i heard today came from pat. he held me and whispered them so softly i felt like time froze. "you are so beautiful" is what he said. its not even that i believed it, or that i wanted to be sure he was telling the truth, but i felt so contented in that second ( Read more... )

its been a while. im still alive. not that that makes a difference to many of you. which is okay. my birthday was on tuesday, and it was wonderful. i got my second tattoo. its a beautiful bird on the right side of my waist. it hurt like a bitch and took 50 minutes. my tattoo artist keith said i should feel like a badass, since i got tattooed in the ( Read more... )

oooh myyy. last night was insane. there's really no other word to describe it. johnny and i left the house around 10:15 and got to the east side about an hour later. we had a couple cosmos while waiting for kelci, sean, matt, leigh, khale, and cristina. the bartender Briana, whom we quickly became aquainted with, was amazing and so we started ( Read more... )

today has been QUITE a day. johnny and i got up early to go meet with a realtor, who showed us three different apartments in and around the washington heights area. its looking like we're going to get the third of the three. its so spacious and just..gorgeous. we both fell in love with it. we're also going to get a puppy and name it Fufu ( Read more... )

i got into the city at 2:00am today. johnny picked me up a port authority and we walked to get some food in times square. then we headed home and stayed up til 5:00am talking and giggling like little kids. we woke up at 1:00 in this afternoon today. crazy. we made a shopping list and then went to union square to shop at bed, bath, and beyond. we ( Read more... )

so last night i finished up the fliesch and decided that, yes, today i am without a doubt packing my bags and moving to new york. i have had a restless night, not an hour went by that i didnt wake up and look at the clock. it would be an understatement to say that i am anxious. i keep on remembering things i need to pack. towels, pictures, books, ( Read more... )

new york. here i come.

today was good. in retrospect, it was pretty uneventful. but it didnt feel that way ( Read more... )