work consumes my life. and im okay with it. its money. and friends. and such is life. i practically live at travis'. we have the same days off, coincidently.

i found something that i wrote in my planner just over a week ago. it seems like its been ages since i even opened the thing. i guess i've been sorta really busy. but anyway, it says,

"i loved ( Read more... )

last night i spontaneously drove to port city java to see matthew&michael play. it was really good to see them. and it wasnt awkward. it made me happy. their music makes my heart happy. heh ( Read more... )

im on the phone with travis and he's rapping. its pretty amusing. he's so cute ( Read more... )

so at the moment. im sipping on champagne and thinking of khale. guh. this is so pointless. i get these fantasies where he just comes and knocks on my door, begging and pleading for me to love him and take him back . really lame on my part. i think somehow i'll always love him. but i need to learn to let go to the point where i dont think about him ( Read more... )

todayyyyy was stressful, but good. i made over $80 in tips and kate said i did really well. i love working with her; she's the absolute sweetest.

the bad news is that my feet ache, my throat is swollen and sore, and my head is spinning.

im going to do my laundry and then drive to travis's house to take a nap. he's so good to me.

last night. FUN. B, johnny, and i had a shindig at mah house. clay came over for a bit. i love the fact that it can just be us close friends, not a huge party, and still have the time of our lives. we danced and sang and drank and laughed and took ridiculous pix. i talked to travis on the phone a couple times - while i was still coherent! im proud ( Read more... )

"it was around 4:30 and i thought, 'i hope my baby calls me.'"

he is too good to be true.

the past two days have truly been...surreal. yesterday B and i walked around downtown. met up with johnny. we went rollin'. baker park until 6:30ish. then coffee co. travis called me twenty minutes later and met the boys. we all talked til 9:00, then travis and i walked to brewers alley for some dinner. it was so so nice. he's such a great guy. we ( Read more... )

so as you may have read, B and i got serving jobs at Village restaurant this afternoon. travis is the head chef...and may soon  becoming even more than a co-worker to me. heh heh heh. he wants to take me out to dinner tomorrow night ( Read more... )

the first words i heard today came from pat. he held me and whispered them so softly i felt like time froze. "you are so beautiful" is what he said. its not even that i believed it, or that i wanted to be sure he was telling the truth, but i felt so contented in that second ( Read more... )