read this.

i was joy.

do you know why i actually built the bagel? it wasn't to destroy everything. it was to destroy myself. i wanted to see if i went in, could i finally escape? like, actually die. at least this way... i don't have to do it alone.
watching EEAAO, i was one with her character. the angles of my paths are very different to hers, ( Read more... )

well, i thought 2022 was going to take the cake for being a fucking rollercoaster, but boy.. for all my complaints about being plagued with seeing things in the future, i sure as fuck don't listen to a single thing i've said.

less than a month and a half into 2023, and i'm already dizzy. let's see:

1. i got surgery dates for my orchi and FFS. yay!
2. my ( Read more... )

recorded 06.05 | note: that this wasn't an actual conversation, just the focal point of several lines of thought based on a conversation with someone from many years ago ( Read more... )

i have written spells upon my body ( Read more... )

i was today years old when i learned that the "throne of god" isn't actually a chair, but an entire subclass of angels. also known as the "chariots" of god, they look like spinning concentric wheels (of eyes ( Read more... )

clovisvague recollection of taking lsd and hanging out with people after a warehouse party in SF. ask if i can get a ride (home) with someone. a traveling burning man/bohemian style carnivale/performance group gives me a lift. i fall asleep in the back of their converted school bus ( Read more... )

[from 2020-06-30 recorded in evernote]

the valley of nulli'm in a workshop type lab, building something out of plastic and wire. i've been drinking something that looks like goldschlager and have quite a buzz on ( Read more... )

..on which day did occur the following events ( Read more... )

dear universe ( Read more... )

ROUND ONE: FIGHT!!!


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