i want to scream at people today.
i want to collapse in a pile of tears and have people fawn over me until i feel better.
i want to post FML! on every social media outlet that i still sorta care about ( Read more... )

walking through the parking structure at kaiser richmond..

construction worker to his buddy: that chick has a great [something muffled]

me, to myself: ick, gross.

also me, to myself: oh snap! ..a great what? what were the options? i look good?

yikes.

and just like that...

today has been brought to you by the estrogen makes everything better council. also a meandering, late-evening discussion with my bestie was instrumental in me not being a mess all night.

(tw: i know this is a topic of huge debate, and frankly right now i don't fucking care)

PMS in trans women
i honestly do not know if PMS ( Read more... )

some days the dysphoria is really bad ( Read more... )

it's weird to finally have a relationship with father's day. or maybe it's just that i finally have an anti-relationship to a gendered holiday.

like, it's weird that we would have gendered holidays, right?i see a lot of pain in the trans spaces that i'm a part of. i don't necessarily share it, i think mostly because i've never felt like i was a ( Read more... )

recorded 06.05 | note: that this wasn't an actual conversation, just the focal point of several lines of thought based on a conversation with someone from many years ago ( Read more... )

this is a continuation of this entry | recorded on 05.28

my relationship with mirrors is changing drastically, mostly for the better. i feel like my dysphoria is less about me vs internal and more about me vs externalbut deep down, i still have this seed of absolute terror that i'm still lying to myself. that estrogen is letting me see what i want ( Read more... )