today i want to scream
i want to scream at people today.
i want to collapse in a pile of tears and have people fawn over me until i feel better.
i want to post FML! on every social media outlet that i still sorta care about.
i want someone to fuck my pain away and wipe my eyes dry.
i want something to hurt, but not in the slow death of a salesman kind of way..
i want something to hurt - in a sharp, 3 smeared drops of blood kind of way.
i want people to say something like god, she's on her period, what a moody bitch, fuck her anyway.
i want someone to put their finger over my lips and whisper everything will be ok.
i want to scream at people today, but my screaming wouldn't sound feminine and it would only serve to make my internal and external situations worse.
how is it that this entire knot of rage and self-pity originated because no one would listen to me when i marked an issue as P1? how fucking stupid is that?
is this rise in irritability (directly) correlated to the rise in thirst (yes: sex, desire) that i've been feeling lately?
or am i just reaching the magical threshold of womanhood where people just stop listening to me?
i want to collapse in a pile of tears and have people fawn over me until i feel better.
i want to post FML! on every social media outlet that i still sorta care about.
i want someone to fuck my pain away and wipe my eyes dry.
i want something to hurt, but not in the slow death of a salesman kind of way..
i want something to hurt - in a sharp, 3 smeared drops of blood kind of way.
i want people to say something like god, she's on her period, what a moody bitch, fuck her anyway.
i want someone to put their finger over my lips and whisper everything will be ok.
i want to scream at people today, but my screaming wouldn't sound feminine and it would only serve to make my internal and external situations worse.
how is it that this entire knot of rage and self-pity originated because no one would listen to me when i marked an issue as P1? how fucking stupid is that?
is this rise in irritability (directly) correlated to the rise in thirst (yes: sex, desire) that i've been feeling lately?
or am i just reaching the magical threshold of womanhood where people just stop listening to me?