Y'know, when we first started, before we even listed the house up in Hope on the market, dad was so pessimistic saying "anything that can go wrong, will" and... y'know what? He's right. So much has gone wrong and everything, it's insane @_@
What exactly has gone wrong, you ask? Let me see if I can remember it all...


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as one of my older poems reads; "cut me and bleed me with this knife ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if it's all a lie... sometimes I wonder if everyone really is just out to make my life miserable... sometimes I wonder if I really am all alone in this messed up world ( Read more... )

I don't think I can take this anymore. Seriously. I've cried for the past three or four days in a row. I just don't know what to do anymore.

My stomach hurts my head is gonna explode and I feel like I can hardly breathe.
And I've been laying here for a good ten minutes now.

The bank still won't give the "okay to close" and I don't understand why ( Read more... )

I've felt not all that great all day. It's been freezing... the temperature is dropping. Oh, and now dad's dragging us back to church tomorrow *sigh* I hate that... because I swear that chick knows when I'll be there and shows up. It's annoying cos she doesn't let me write my notes during service like I want to ( Read more... )

You know the world's going to hell when sidekick hates life and is on the verge of becoming emo D:

I ♥ my sidekick... what kind of sick people are in the world that could cause the sweet and fun-loving sidekick to go sad!!! EVIL EVIL PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE YOU!!!! >.>

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...okay I have to say this SOMEWHERE... and I don't know why I have ( Read more... )

Twisting, turning, hurting, bleeding,
Pain and happiness alternately receding,
The ups are joyous, the downs are hell,
Ocean swallowing me beneath a swell,
A vampire sucking life from my bones,
Not sure if I'm dead or just alone.

Happiness rises, breaking through darkness ( Read more... )

Just cut me open,
Pour out the blood,
Like so many before you,
It shouldn't hurt this bad.

But as you dig in,
Knife severing vessels,
The pain in my heart,
It's worse than in my arm.

I want to know why,
I want it all to stop,
I want your never ending love,
I want to hear your voice.

I am not okay ( Read more... )

[Here comes an opening] she’s gotta ~broken wing~ If you can *feel* the sting // Take care of ||everything|| if she can make a ::scene:: I’ll ^show^ you what I mean... She pack a _loaded gun_ set ~fire~ to "anyone" // Knows how to make ‘em run // She’s down on ((sixth street)) she’s goin’ ||sixty|| She’ll show you how to *breathe* ... I don’t want ( Read more... )

Look into my eyes and find,
The pain and hurt you've left behind,
The hatred put on me day after day,
Making me want to die and decay,
It makes me want to end my life,
Cut me and bleed me with a knife.

Known in my heart, felt in my soul ( Read more... )