as one of my older poems reads; "cut me and bleed me with this knife ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if it's all a lie... sometimes I wonder if everyone really is just out to make my life miserable... sometimes I wonder if I really am all alone in this messed up world ( Read more... )

I don't think I can take this anymore. Seriously. I've cried for the past three or four days in a row. I just don't know what to do anymore.

My stomach hurts my head is gonna explode and I feel like I can hardly breathe.
And I've been laying here for a good ten minutes now.

The bank still won't give the "okay to close" and I don't understand why ( Read more... )

I've felt not all that great all day. It's been freezing... the temperature is dropping. Oh, and now dad's dragging us back to church tomorrow *sigh* I hate that... because I swear that chick knows when I'll be there and shows up. It's annoying cos she doesn't let me write my notes during service like I want to ( Read more... )

Twisting, turning, hurting, bleeding,
Pain and happiness alternately receding,
The ups are joyous, the downs are hell,
Ocean swallowing me beneath a swell,
A vampire sucking life from my bones,
Not sure if I'm dead or just alone.

Happiness rises, breaking through darkness ( Read more... )

Just cut me open,
Pour out the blood,
Like so many before you,
It shouldn't hurt this bad.

But as you dig in,
Knife severing vessels,
The pain in my heart,
It's worse than in my arm.

I want to know why,
I want it all to stop,
I want your never ending love,
I want to hear your voice.

I am not okay ( Read more... )

Look into my eyes and find,
The pain and hurt you've left behind,
The hatred put on me day after day,
Making me want to die and decay,
It makes me want to end my life,
Cut me and bleed me with a knife.

Known in my heart, felt in my soul ( Read more... )

Why do you remain, when everyone else has gone?
Why are you still here when the night has turned to dawn?
What is there in me, that keeps you from running away?
What keeps you by my side throughout night and the day?
Why do you still talk, even when I lash out with words?
Why haven't you flown away with the flock of new birds?

There's something ( Read more... )

So friends are forbidden within these walls?
Laughter cannot penetrate these halls?
How long must I suffer your stupid rules?
These, of all, are way too cruel!

You can't get away with this forever,
Can't act as though I'm just a feather,
I won't stand for it, I really won't!
You think prison works, well it don't!

One of these days, I'll break ( Read more... )

I may be sad, but it'll pass,
My life worth living, I need not ask,
Even though you need be single,
With other guys I don't dare mingle,
For you have given me future hope,
And I do not feel at the end of my rope,
I know one day we'll be together again,
And on that day, a new life will begin!

I don't care how long it takes ( Read more... )