I feel so much better. So relieved. Takes care of so much of the stress like you wouldn't believe. I just loooooveeeee life.
But more; I love God.
and almost as much as I love God; I love my Caleb♥
sososo much^_^ wheee!!!!
life is goooood!

I will praise You, Oh Lord. Because it is You who I adore. You who runs my life; not me ( Read more... )

Why am I so freaking down lately? This is so retarded!!
Dreamt about Caleb again last night...

My family and I went down to Southport to look around. Kinda like a mini vacat. but for some reason, I didn't want to go into walmart when my family did, so I sat in the van, listening to my music. Next thing I know, a small group of teens are walking ( Read more... )

I'm feeling kinda down again today... I'm really hoping this isn't the end what was supposed to be a lifetime :\

Y'kno, every time I say something like that, I instantly feel absolutely pathetic for saying it. Like, as if an invisible hand just slaps me upside the head and shouts "SERIOUSLY HEATHER WHY WOULD YOU SAY SUCH A THING?!?!"

...when I ( Read more... )

Ooooooh man!!!
Y'kno, it seems like when I finally get to the breaking point, where I think I'm gonna break under the pressure, everything gets better.

So, you know I was upset and all... and last night around 11, my cell starts ringing. "4-3-2-1" by Manafest. It was Caleb calling!! *dance*
We fell asleep on the phone together♥Oooh I loves him^_^ ( Read more... )

literally. I'm suffering some majour withdrawl here... I want to talk to my man sooo badly... but he's never online anymore and doesn't call me ( Read more... )

I now know what my Light felt like when he once said that he cried at the thought of how much he loved me.
I can always imagine most things, but I now know first-hand what he (or, most likely what) felt like... cos I'm on the verge of tears myself right now, trying to compose myself... just thinking about how much I love Caleb.
♥I love you, Caleb ( Read more... )

I'm soooo bored. I went to the very beginning of my journal here... June 24th 2007. Well, that's the earliest entry there is. I KNOW I started this journal in 2004... I wish I hadn't ever erased anything... I could go back and see what I've forgotten from the summer of '04 through June of '07 *sighes* silly me ( Read more... )

I just had one of those "I have a boyfriend" moments. "Someone who loves me. Who cares."
And my mind is like "whoa" now.
♥I love you, Caleb!!!!♥

...it hurts. It really hurts right now.
My heart, I mean.

I could say I can't take this (I feel like I can't) but I know God's with me... keeping me one step above insanity. One step a head of failing.
One step forward from screwing up EVERYTHING...
but then again, when you look back on it, what is there left to screw up ( Read more... )