I feel like I am in so far over my head and will never get over this.  ( Talking about the anniversary of my rape, feelings, legal stuff... )

Yeah, she gives a smile when the pain comes, the pain's gonna make everything alright... She wears a cross around her neck... and the cross is someone she has not met, not yet...

( Cut for triggers... rape... )

( long; triggers: anniversary of sexual assault, emotional partner abuse, substance abuse and drunkenness, sexual compulsion, self hatred, self destructiveness, memories and description of the assault, arousal in response to the assault, self blaming, depression, bdsm, internalized transphobia )

My anniversary/birthday was thursday and friday. I was kidnapped on the sixth and assaulted in the early morning hours of the seventh. Once I escaped, I spent the seventh in the hospital. This was the first year since it happened.

My birthday, however, was my birthday. I mean, it really was. I've been fearing that it would be a day of mourning and ( Read more... )

My anniversary is my birthday on Friday. I've been working really hard to keep triggers at bay, and it seems like the universe is conspiring against me. Not really, but kind of.

Last week a former friend of mine got into a nasty two day argument consisting of roughly fifty text messages that concluded with her rubbing it in my face that this ( Read more... )

I'm a rape survivor.

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sad  is just an under statement as many of you know my best friend past away in october. well his birthday is on christmas and all i can do is think about him i have been crying for 4 hours straight now i'm pissed that he left that he's gone and i never got the chances to say my good byes i'm hurting so much right now. i feel abonden an so weak ( Read more... )

So, tomorrow marks the one year anniversary of me taking the helm as maintainer here in _survivors_ :) Wow has the time flown by... it's been a great year ( Read more... )

( triggers for self harm and rape, please don't read unless you are safe )

So it has been 2 years last saturday. I am pretty numb, still battling SI, will be 100 days on Saturday Dec, 1. If I harm I lose my job. That is what happens when your therapist is your boss. The boundaries don't exist ( Read more... )