( Various methods of treatment in the psychotherapy field. )

( Cut for talk of therapy and finding a therapist )

( Cut for talk of therapy, counseling, etc. )

If I have missed any triggers, please let me know ASAP and I'll fix them! <3

( Trigger warnings: Fantasies/CSA/Self-love/porn/etc.; Interrupted fantasy; setting: r*****'s apartment; manipulation; r*** vs assault; therapy; brief mention of kink/fetish/BDSM )

This is my first post, so I'm sorry if I missed out any warnings. Some if it is detailed.

( Can be triggering, talk of possible molestation by family members, use of word r**e, object use, sodomy, death of a child, depression, Self-harm, anxiety disorder, miscarriage if I missed anything I'm really sorry )

( cut for mention of suicide and therapy... )

( Cut for possible triggers, domestic abuse, shoving, throwing things, manipulation, anger management )

( Therapy stuff (non graphic); emotional dischord )

So, I'm nearing the end of my first month of an outpatient treatment program - I start week four on Tuesday night (Monday is a holiday here). While therapy itself is interesting, I'm still nowhere near actually connecting to my emotions when I speak about my history.

( Non-graphic mention of child abuse, rape, self-harm, suicidal ideation & other stuff )

( Lots of talk about closure, a brief mention of rape and dark shadows. Nothing too triggery, just a lot of fear and reluctance to move on. )