This is a really rambly post, so I hope I caught all of the triggers.

( difficulty managing money, guilt/shame, relationships, spirituality, Christianity, brief mentions of bipolar disorder/flashbacks/anxiety/sex, relying on partners for support, grad school, grief at accepting that chronic mental/physical illness is disabling, dealing with giftedness/lost potential?, healing beyond survival mode )

Any responses would be good. Right now. I'm in crisis and talking to a friend but I need help.

( Relationships, questioning love, vulnerability, suicidal thoughts )

( Cut for possible triggers, domestic abuse, shoving, throwing things, manipulation, anger management )

( Triggers: validation-seeking behavior (healthy and destructive), friends asking for/demanding support, passive-aggression, feeling like a failure or a bad friend. )

Just to warn everyone before they even click... this is gonna be long.

( Triggers may include relationships, confusion re: sexual feelings, mention of sexual abuse, cutting, swearing. )

( Therapy finished; new sexual relationship; talk about abuser )

( Triggers: Family time at Christmas, watching Dad stay in an abusive relationship, abuser justifications, control as abuse )

 
He's called me to tell me he's spending the night at someone else's house.  He doesn't even give a first name.  It's a woman for certain.  I don't think he'll sleep with her because then he'd know he's a liar, because it's all about meditation and stuff so that makes it okay.  He's Spending the night at some woman's house and that's supposed to be ( Read more... )

Well, this morning I received the gift that he's been making for me all this time. It's a necklace with different beads. But they're all purple. And it's really pretty. Not that I wear a lot of purple so I wouldn't wear it often, but I think I'm gonna keep it. I just won't feel the need to change my attitude toward him. He's still just a temp at my ( Read more... )

( Thanks to EVERYONE who helped. Talk of resolving the situation, happy ending )