( cut for SI triggers, emotional abuse )

( self harm )

Hi guys. Sorry i haven't been around for some time, i hardly ever get internet access where i am and i am sorry to be here asking for support when i haven't been able to give any. I do think of you often and hope everyone is doing ok.

( eating disorder, self harm, depression, talking with abuser, confusion )

( cut for self harm ... mention of rape )

( Cut for sexual assualt, self harm, eating disorder ... )

( Cut for self-injury thoughts, memories of CSA by my father )

( Cut for talk of self-injury urges and feelings about it, dissociation/depersonalization )

( Mentions being home alone, eating disorder and self-injury behaviors, abuse location, suicidal thoughts )

Hello. We're many people in one body, created as a result of "severe" trauma/abuse. ( cut for abuse story, incest, self harm )

Cut for--- feeling like I am forced into having sex, memories of rape (no details), suicidal ideas, feeling like things are out of control, cutting, family issues, smoking pot, drinking, and the possibility of being pregnant.
This post is going to be jumping back and forth, like where ever my thoughts go-- then I will be typing it out like that. ( Read more... )