-Friday night, 'Alumni' gathering for Reclaim, the gender therapy group I used to attend. Was extremely nervous about going and seeing people, but it turned out great ( Read more... )

So I start my new job tomorrow. 6am sharp ( Read more... )

Sometimes it's hard to find a way to keep on; quiet weekends, holidays, you come undone. Open your window and look upon all the kinds of alive you can be. Be still, be light, believe me.
-From "Little Bird" (The Weepies)

Also: ( Invictus )

Today:
-Request first unemployment check-Interview at 1. More on that later, maybe ( Read more... )

Whoo, what a week.

Let's see.
-Applied to 5 jobs, got one callback so far. Interview Tuesday.
-Did a bad thing, fucked some shit up. I don't want to talk about it, but it will be okay. Jon loves me, god knows why, and because of that things will work out okay.
-Went to Les Misérables at the Orpheum with Jon, Kay, Wallace, and Griffin. AMAZING. ( Read more... )

So something we talked about in therapy last night is how I, like my father, tend to put situations and emotions and reactions "on the shelf" or in "lockdown" in order to not deal with it. I claim that I will deal with it later and then never do (or at least not usually). It's not even blinders, per se, just..."I don't know how to deal with this, ( Read more... )

When I was 7 or 8 I had trouble sleeping because I was sure that at any minute I might wake up and find that I was actually a baby, or an old person, and my life was not mine at all. I've been having the same feeling lately; not at bedtime, but almost all the time. Tonight I even had a premonition that I would die tomorrow...get hit by a car or ( Read more... )

This is going to be a good weekend. Jon and I have plans, but no obligations. No trips out of town, no parties, no anything. Just our own plans on our own time. Basically we're going to an Ellis concert tomorrow night, then church and brunch on Sunday. The rest of the time is entirely ours. Some basic housecleaning and grocery shopping need to ( Read more... )

(It is very hard to type this because my right hand is clutching a paper-towel-wrapped ice cube in order to stave off the pain of the terrible burn I inflicted on myself via Zojirushi. Bear with me and my inevitable typos ( Read more... )

What an excellent weekend. Probably overall the best Duluth visit I've had since I moved away, and certainly the best recently ( Read more... )