my sister is dead

is sorta back to normal and its cool like that and i often find myself thinking... damn! was i so blind i didn't see how good this is? or what... but then... i'm at school now and while i started working again i'm still blatantly aware of how depressed the whole place makes me feel... so low energy... and as far as 'should i stay or go' i don't ( Read more... )

we part, we hurt, infict pain, come back again. heal eachother ( Read more... )

oh my god ( Read more... )

pain pain pain pain pain ( Read more... )

waking up early morning this time can't go back to sleep fever face hot could be jet lag compounded by the all too many thoughts and worries capering around my head ( Read more... )

it's day 5 of our detox program (homestylee, something like this ( Read more... )

ereignis ( Read more... )

magic mushrooms last night. just enough, a walk to ali pali to see the fireworks around east london. wobbly legs like the little stalk of the mushroom itself... i brought a hot water bottle in my jacket. good times. still have gnarly cold so i'm trying not to smoke (and trying to convince myself yet again that i really don't want to smoke at all) ( Read more... )

(no, i'm not getting married ( Read more... )