you know what ....I'M A STUPID FUCKING WHORE!!!!!!!

You know what? I feel really really shitty. I've been thinking a lot about all the stupid shit I've done. Blah. I hurt a lot of people. Got hurt by a few, too. But, I was really inconsiderate of other people. I only cared about one person other than myself. That's bullshit. I still care about him too. I wish we were still friends. But, I know that ( Read more... )

I love it when people just ditch their friends. For their girlfriend. If you can't have the girlfriend and keep your friends, she's not worth having right? Right. He's hurting really bad. And you don't even know it. What a friend. And I love how he can still be nice to you and feel so lonely talking to you. That's awesome. Stop being so stuck up. ( Read more... )

God, I can't believe I sound so pathetic! I don't know why I'm complaining so much all the time. My life is really great! I do miss Jeff, but I'm just going to have to deal with that. Ryan's awesome. I'm so happy! My life is so full of ups and downs. I just need to relax and let things be. Work is getting better. Kind of boring, but getting better ( Read more... )

Durnk at 9 oclock in the morning. Go figure. Liffe blows. Wanna die. Really miss my frinds. Relly miss everything. Wanna kill myself. Holly sucks. Steve's a bitch. We all know the jeff sittueation. Blah. Jessicas cool tho. Erics still here. :) Brad still hasn't come. Always somethinng. Surgery...grandpa dies. God. I just want to fucking seee him! ( Read more... )

Umm...damn. So many things have changed. I wish Jeff and I still talked, but that's his thing. If he doesn't want to talk to me...whatever. I understand. I do. But, damn. Could've given me some warning. Won't bother him when he comes home though. Too much drama there. I do miss talking to Beth though. She was pretty fucking cool. Shit happens, ( Read more... )

God, it's been a while. Life sucks. Kind of. I stayed with Caleb in the Delph Saturday night. It was so awesome! Stayed up watching movies with him and his roommate Eric. ERIC...ohmigod! That boy is SO fucking hot. He's, like, Abercrombie boy extraordinare. But, SO hot. He loves Bright Eyes. Has Full Collapse on blue vinyl. He's pretty too. Jeffa, ( Read more... )

Work sucks. Blah. Someone shoot me.

I miss Jeff so damn much. I have nobody to talk to about anything. I've never felt more alone and I still get to talk to him every couple of days. But, it's not the same. At all. I want to see him.

I miss Jared too. Can't wait to go see him! Soon!!!

So sick of country music...It sucks...

Work sucked this past week, but it's nice to get out of the house every day. And make money. I tried to burn my house down. That's always fun... I miss Jeffa, but it's not horrible since I'm getting kind of used to not being able to see him. But I do miss talking to him as much. Not that we ever talk about anything, but you know... Anyway...I've ( Read more... )

Okay...I am officially sick and tired of being laid up. This sucks. I can't see my friends. I can't do anything. I'm really sorry that Jeffa's hurt and everything, but at least he doesn't have to have his fucking leg elevated for 24 hours a day. It hurts him to go out, but at least he can. And his mother's not completely overbearing and keeps him ( Read more... )