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You know what? I feel really really shitty. I've been thinking a lot about all the stupid shit I've done. Blah. I hurt a lot of people. Got hurt by a few, too. But, I was really inconsiderate of other people. I only cared about one person other than myself. That's bullshit. I still care about him too. I wish we were still friends. But, I know that can probably never happen. I got a boyfriend. A good one. I really like him. Who knows what will happen...I want to find someone I can be serious about again. Someone who really cares about me. That would be nice. Then again, I'm really naive and can't tell when people are playing the hell out of me and when they're not. It's depressing. I feel kind of lost right now. One phone call would make me feel home again, but it'll never happen. Damn. Why did I have to be so fucking stupid? This sucks. I wish I didn't live here anymore. Wanna go somewhere where nobody knows me and I can meet a whole new batch of people who will turn on me in an instant. Why is this world like this? Kill me.