I deserve better. Period. End of story. I've been doing a lot of thinking in between my busyness lately. I've come to the realization what an amazing person I am in so many different respects. How so you may question? I am 20 years young and already only a semester away from obtaining my bachelors degree. I intend to attend graduate school to ( Read more... )

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Today I'm praying for those who lost their lives 7 years ago. Today's date was a day where Americans united as one. It makes me sick and sad that so many people seem to forget such a tragedy. It's the main reason our country has been ( Read more... )

Since I've last had the privilege of writing in my journal. I apologize well in advance for not updating as often. I've just been so terribly busy with school and work. Work is completely miserable a lot of the time. I'm just so tired that it's hard to even stand for more than 5 hours. I know that sounds terrible, but it's the absolute truth. I ( Read more... )

How I will miss you dearly. I feel the warmth slipping away. Cold is approaching and part of me wants it to, but the other half is simply enjoying the last few days that remain of summer. I never thought I'd say that I enjoyed summer, but I actually enjoyed summer this year. Although I spent most of it at school and work I feel like I got a lot ( Read more... )

I will forever be. I was reading through my old comments on myspace and facebook, because I'm a nerd like that. It makes me so sad to see all the people I used to talk to and haven't had contact with for years now. Seeing things such as "Sexy Lexy is mine" and "I love you Lexy" from people who have disappeared into the darkness just makes me wonder ( Read more... )

Seems to be leaving me. Whether it be to go to school or just generally they've grown apart from me. It's kind of sad to lose so many people, but at the same time I suppose it's going to force me to get to know new people. I still have not gotten started on the actual changes I've planned. I've been far too lazy! I'm just going to use summer as my ( Read more... )

To start new, fresh, and clean. I really think these recent hard times have been a blessing in disguise. I've discovered what a strong person I am and realize that hurt is just continuing to follow me as a reminder of that. I've decided to completely rearrange my life for the better. The first decision I have made to do so is to clean my room. ( Read more... )

To believe in cuz I don't believe in myself.
And I'm sick and tired of getting nowhere.
Guess it will all work out.

And I don't mind anymore.
And I don't mind anymore.

And I need someone.
To put my trust in.
Cuz I can't trust myself.
And I'm scared of failure.
So scared of success.
I guess it will all work out.

And I don't mind anymore.
And I don't mind ( Read more... )

I wish you hadn't hurt me so terribly. I wish you hadn't been the first person to crush my heart and let it slowly crumble alone. Now I am at your mercy and I will always be there. I wish I could go back, back to the very beginning.

I miss a lot of people lately. It feels as though I'm losing everyone, yet it seems more and more people are vying ( Read more... )

It is quite amusing to read my old journal entries. I really think it's hilarious how I tried to build myself up to be this mature person, whilst typing like a complete teenager. Ah dear Lexy, you can't put yourself on automaturity pilot.. Your still going to have immature moments whether you want to believe it or not ( Read more... )