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but the blood in your veins, as you carry his name, turns thinner than water
I could live with the fact that the breadwinner and sole parental unit whose face I'd known as my dad's, had to move elsewhere. "Better job opportunities," he says. "I can't find a decent job in Singapore," he says. I could live with the fact that communication wouldn't always be instant and it would require a huge dose of patience from both ( Read more... ) -
sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart
Today was one of Those Days that made me step back and scrutinise my choice of direction for myself. I'd already started my countdown to the end of my internship ever since I sent that liberating email to Louis and Elyn telling them I would not be extending my tenure past the 17th of June. I bore the burden of being stuck in the mud, wheels ( Read more... ) -
who are we to be emotional?
I feel so much pent-up frustration inside of me that I'm struggling to find the outlet through which to let it all go. I question myself (and sometimes God) mercilessly what am I supposed to do with my life, and why have I been dealt with those cards laid out in front of me. Questions beget more questions; the availability - and consequently the ( Read more... ) -
light me up when I'm down
It's been fifty-eight days since I last (digitally) penned my thoughts. I have not been keeping at it with my resolutions; my heart no longer yearns to weave my musings into a web of words that you may or may not be reading on your computer screens. My work life shares a delicate balance with whatever semblance of a social life I have. I miss the ( Read more... ) -
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
I fear I may be getting jaded. Work is little more than a routine of generating numbers on a screen and translating them into a language comprehensible to others. I try to make sense of what the figures and colours are telling me, but it's almost bordering on Lost In Translation. Try as I might, I cannot put together the pieces to form a bigger ( Read more... ) -
and through it all he offers me protection
The end of the first decade of the new millennium. 2010 has been one of my better years. I learnt to be independent, to trust more in God, to grow up and be more decisive, and to stand firm to my beliefs. I also discovered the hard way what it meant to have left your heart behind, never knowing if you'd return to pick it up again and restore it to ( Read more... ) -
we're taking shortcuts and false illusions
I feel like I've abandoned this place, because of the bite-sized spontaneous nature of twitter. That's where the changing face of the Internet generation lies. Everything has been condensed to be able to fit into the palm of our hands, and to cater to our insatiable need for instant gratification.
I don't want to be reduced to bite-sized means of ( Read more... ) -
this'll take the heart right out of me
Dear Sheena,
I'm sorry I wasn't there enough for you. I'm sorry I couldn't bring you to Singapore with us when we had to move back here from Cape Town. We felt the freedom you and Tyger enjoyed in Camps Bay would be unrivaled. I barely had you for a year, and within that year, I learnt so much about having another under your care. I learnt to grow ( Read more... ) -
we're mending babylon, trying to right the wrong
I think I know why I no longer feel any attachment to this place. I'm someone who needs to be surrounded by culture. I need to immerse myself fully in it. I need it to be in the air I breathe, in the sights I see, in the cacophony of everyday life that I hear, in the
people who make up my everyday experiences.
That is what this country is severely ( Read more... )