Dear Christopher! My soldier!

Yes, u made a huge mistake. Yes, ur a dog, Yes, ur a liar and a cheater, Yes, ur everything u said u r. Do i still love u...haha, of course i do. Im hurt, im frustrated, angry, depressed....but me constantly sayin ur a bitch, asshole, jerk, son of a bitch isnt going to make this better.

I remember when i called u for the ( Read more... )

Im hurtin so bad right now. Im in love with a man who doesnt even love me.

I always pictured myself married, with kids, and a happy family. This aint no fuckin happy family. Married to someone who doesnt even love me anymore. I have a son who i feel sorry for, cuz he doesnt even know chris, and sad to say, but he never will. Im so fuckin done.

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Well, its a couple days after Christmas and still no word from christopher. He didnt even call to say Merry Christmas to Devonte, aint that some shit!! I bet he called his mom though. I dont understand why hes avoidin me. Im not the one who had a whole nother life. I have been nothing but honest nd true to him, and this is what he does...this is ( Read more... )

Well, today was a really shitty day. chris and i faught last night and he ended up not talkin to me today. No e-mail, no message no nothing! It sucks, i didnt mean it when i said dont talk to me anymore. 
He pissed me off so bad though. Left nasty pics on the computer with my sons, took money out when i told him not to, and ignores me when im tryin ( Read more... )

Today  was an ok day. Chris called last night, and we had a really good conversation. Then we got online after talkin on the phone and he turned the web cam on...i got to see my man!!! Yeah!
But then, today i thought i would look in his accounts to see what he has been up to lately. Come to find out, he is still tryin to talk to females on line... ( Read more... )

Well, today was a another one of "those" days. I did get to talk to Chris today online, and play pool with him...it was nice, well, except that part where  i broke down. I just miss him so much, and i want him to come home now....he didnt like hearing that, and with all the stress he has, i probably shouldnt have said anything to get him upset. I ( Read more... )

Well....tonight is another hard night....no sleep for me. 
I got an e-mail from Chris, and hes just down right now, and i feel bad cuz theres NOTHING i can do for him. First he has to leave for Iraq for a year, maybe longer, then his grandad passed....hes having a hard time tryin to show emotions and i think thats bothering him the most. i dont know ( Read more... )

Well chris has been gone for almost 2 weeks, and although its still tough, it is getting a little easier. Its still hard to go to bed and not feel him next to me, its still hard waking up knowing he wont be home by 5 and its still hard knowing hes at war. I finally got his address so i can start writing him....but its not good enough u know. Its ( Read more... )

Today is truly the worst day of my life. My husband Chris just got deployed to Iraq! I dont think i have ever been so depressed in my life. We left the house at 6:45 am, and we were both in tears. All the soldiers got to spend time with their familes about 9 at the gym, and sayin "bye" to him was thne hardest thing i have ever done in my life. Im ( Read more... )

Well, techinically yesterday was my due date and although that doesnt mean anything, there is still no baby! I feel like he doesnt want to come out, i have no pains or anything! This sucks! I'm ready, i have everything ready for him, but hes not here!

My sister and dad came back today, and she told me what my grandma said. I guess she said she ( Read more... )