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Today was an ok day. Chris called last night, and we had a really good conversation. Then we got online after talkin on the phone and he turned the web cam on...i got to see my man!!! Yeah!
But then, today i thought i would look in his accounts to see what he has been up to lately. Come to find out, he is still tryin to talk to females on line...when i read that message...i got so pissed! I thought everything was fine between us, i thought i was his only "one", i guess im not good enough for him if hes out there tryin to get more women...and the worse part is, we are married! I deserve more respect then what hes giving me right now. I just dont understand why he feels the need to do this....it hurts....but i dont know how much more of it i can take....its so wrong of him to do this to me... especially since im already depressed about him being in Iraq...i would NEVER do that to him! I know hes in Iraq, and sexually frustrated, but that does NOT give him the right to try and find females in Iraq while hes down there....not even female friends....we are married and i dont think he needs more females in his life....he needs to stop, he doesnt understand that when he does this stuff it makes me feel like im a piece of shit in his eyes...like i could be soooooo much better.
I dont know, maybe i was reading to much into it...but i dont think he needs to be telling girls online that he thinks they "look real good", to me thats wrong, and sayin something is going to lead to the "other" thing, and thats going to lead to me and Devonte leaving!
But anyways....i didnt really do much today. Just cleaned my house, and went to Tiffanys for awhile.
Nothing new....
"God, please keep my husband and all other soldeirs safe tonight"