First thing that's coming to mind: You, I'm sorry that I ended the friendship. I'm sorry that I never got tested when we knew each other, though it really doesn't matter what my status is because I know at least you're fine. I have urges to unblock you in hopes that you might want to say hi or something be truth be told that's not going to happen. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I don't know if I need to laugh more or cry it all out. Or maybe I'm caffeinated? I'm just too awake for right now.

I'm afraid, I'm frustrated, I don't know. IT's like I keep threatening my self that if my family were not a around...I'd just let myself go. I don't care, I don't know how to take things seriously, I just...don't want to make my family unhappy. I see my dad yell all the time at small things, he's a short fuse but is that what i have to look forward ( Read more... )

I'm hella indifferent...about everything, jaded perhaps. When will that end? I need to start giving a shit eventually, right? Also I don't work at fry's anymore. w00t. Any sign of pressure or stress my mind just wants to drift away from it, I need to force myself to move forward. I wan't to be inspired, but how do I do that sitting at home in a ( Read more... )

I'M GOING TO BE EMO OVER A GUY AGAIN! Why would I do that? Because I allow myself to fucking like someone enough even though I know it's stupid. I Should just fucking kill myself now and save everyone the agony of having to hear about any issues I have because they're really not worth mentioning. I mean I'm a waste of space anyway so I'd be doing ( Read more... )

I'm not too smart, I'm not too attracted, I don't have many skills, my self esteem is total crap, and I feel like I killed most of my motivation to do anything. ugh....I dunno. I have this huge almost obsession with escapism. I just don't wan't to be anywhere on this earth,or reality...I don't know where I want to be. Man...ugh. Maybe I need pills

Started going to the gym, and I'm thinking it might make me seem more of an interesting person...or perhaps it'll make people want to stay long enough to endure my BS? I dunno, am I BS? WHAT IS BULL SHIT?! It's Saturday(technically Sunday) night and I'm home complaining about nothing because I can't fall asleep because some dipshit thought it'd be ( Read more... )

Am I too old to be writing in this? ehh, I just like the privacy now I guess. I'm not sure where things are headed but to be honest it doesn't matter. Wanting to force things my way or wishing things were different seems trite. I'm just really tired. At the end of the day I just think how nice it'd be to have someone to tell everything to without ( Read more... )

only because I thought it would be a good idea to hype myself on the thought of you. Though I guess I'm the butt. Though to be honest these past few months have been a total learning experience. I'm doing my first scene design project and I'm extremely excited to get it done and show the others. I hope it gets positive feed back. Hopefully I did ok ( Read more... )

Is flippin hard, what am I even doing? I can't focus for some reason. Ughhh, so much to be done! I want coffee. X__X