ughhh
I'm hella indifferent...about everything, jaded perhaps. When will that end? I need to start giving a shit eventually, right? Also I don't work at fry's anymore. w00t. Any sign of pressure or stress my mind just wants to drift away from it, I need to force myself to move forward. I wan't to be inspired, but how do I do that sitting at home in a desert that feels like it's draining everything from me. Melodramatic, yes, but I really do require a change in scenery. Time will tell and yadda yadda...butts and shit. If I can meet someone who isn't already in a relationship or doesn't require sex I think I'll be happy...though I mean I guess he can require some sex...sex. I haven't been sleeping well either, not sure what's up with that. The starting of my last couple school years have been interestingly stressful. Slightly annoying. I wish I was at a place where I was ok with everything. I wonder what the people in France are doing. Probably eating amazing things. I have the urge to talk to Mike to see what he's been up to, not going to lie kinda miss him. Maybe it's because he usually has a shit time sleeping and he'd keep me company...if we were still talking...on good terms...not being dumb....oh well. Oh hey I got a note from my 14 year old self, it reads: get a life. Well if we're being honest with each other I wish I could tell my 14 year old self to go suck on a bag of baboon butts and he shoulda grown up ignoring those Disney movies. At least I've been sketching, some meh stuff but I'll get better. poopballs.