so slight disappointment yesterday. james had said he would go with me to jen's birthday dinner on monday. he even said he would drive. i was really excited for him to meet my best friend. so we didn't talk about it the rest of the week. we talked on tuesday, didn't talk wednesday or thursday, thought it would all still be fine. guess not. tried to ( Read more... )

happiness is wonderful. i greatly enjoy being happy. it's a weird feeling for because, well, it lacked in my life. right now, minus my health stuff, i'm pretty darn happy. everything else is going well and i couldn't ask for them to go any better... that's a first! things with james are going really well, super well actually. we went to my sister's ( Read more... )

so here i am. blogging away. elissa is leaving me at work so i have to keep her in the loop :) plus, i might get a tv show out of this! HA ( Read more... )

i've had a good last couple of weeks. the tingling in my legs has stopped (yay!) and i just generally feel happier. i think i've just become more content with the fact that i am single, and i guess i'm enjoying it? i'm not sure if enjoy is the right word... but feeling okay with it. trust me, i don't miss my ex-bf in the LEAST, but i just miss that ( Read more... )

feeling bleh again today. i put so much effort into certain aspects of my life to get nothing in return, it's exhausting. i hate liking people and not knowing what they are thinking. i'm trying not to put effort into it, but it's hard not to. i need to learn how to just give up and move on, but when you've liked someone for so long it's hard, but i ( Read more... )

so the tingling in my legs happens mostly when i'm sitting down, i wonder if that means anything? it's been going on for about two weeks now... and doesn't seem like it's going to stop anytime soon. hopefully i'll be going to a doctor soon and maybe solve this mystery, or start treatment if that's the route i need to go down. let's hope not ( Read more... )

i'm having increased tingling in my legs, not a good sign. last year, i was having the same problems, told my specialist, and she said i shouldn't worry about it if my spinal mris came back clean. my neurologist, who i don't really trust, said the mris were clean. at that time, i couldn't go back to the specialist, and now a year later i'm having ( Read more... )

today i had a great talk at lunch with elissa during our lunch walk. we just talked about relationships, why they don't work, how hard they are to get into... everything. it was nice just to let out everything i had been feeling about what happened to me in the past, how jaded it made me, and how i'm trying to move on and become a better person ( Read more... )

feeling empty again today, don't really know why. i just get these waves of feeling incredibly lonely and useless. i feel like i don't want to do anything, i don't want to be around. i hate this feeling, but i also can't help but feel it. i've been feeling alone for awhile. i don't miss dan, don't even get me started. i think i just miss the ( Read more... )