elissa told me to
so here i am. blogging away. elissa is leaving me at work so i have to keep her in the loop :) plus, i might get a tv show out of this! HA.
so life as of the last couple of days have been good. found some resolve with james, so i know where we stand now... in a good place :) he told me that i'm the only girl he's dating, and we're the taking it slow mode right now, which is way fine with me. i think everything just went way too fast with my ex, and i made a ton of mistakes. i liked it when james told me he wanted to date someone he was friends with first... ding, winner winner chicken dinner! i'm in! haha. no, but i definitely agree. it just gets rid of all that awkward BS people go through when they are dating, getting to know each other and stuff. so i would prefer that... which probably why the guys i have liked within the last year have all been friends... haha. weird. whatever.
i'm in a very happy place with james, now. now that i know where stand and possibly what to expect. i'm fine with taking it slow, as long as we take it slow together :) part of my worry was how fast the pace was going to be, and if i was going to be ready for that. i'm glad that we are taking it slow, because i think after everything i went through with my ex, i need someone who is willing to go slow so that i can pace myself out of this, because this is all really new to me. i've never really dated outside of high school except my ex bf, and that's a bad experience to go off of. haha.
i like the way i feel when i'm with james, happy. i probably maybe have never felt this just genuinely happy before, given the circumstances with my health conditions and all. he just makes me forget that things are going bad, if i had a bad test that day, if work sucked... he just makes me happy and makes me feel good about myself... and i really like that feeling. it feels awesome. it feels so awesome just to literally leave my problems at the door and feel happy. and his parents are great, they are awesome. they are so nice to me, and apparently really like me, from what james has said. his mom especially likes me :) which is yay! i've never met parents before but i guess i did well! :) i like them a lot, and i know i can talk to them about my medical stuff, and james encourages me to do so since i can't talk to my own parents about it. so it's nice to be able to talk to "adults" especially those in the medical field about my problems, that makes me feel better also.
i'm ending this now. i'm working off of 5 hours of sleep and i am exhausted. good night moon.
so life as of the last couple of days have been good. found some resolve with james, so i know where we stand now... in a good place :) he told me that i'm the only girl he's dating, and we're the taking it slow mode right now, which is way fine with me. i think everything just went way too fast with my ex, and i made a ton of mistakes. i liked it when james told me he wanted to date someone he was friends with first... ding, winner winner chicken dinner! i'm in! haha. no, but i definitely agree. it just gets rid of all that awkward BS people go through when they are dating, getting to know each other and stuff. so i would prefer that... which probably why the guys i have liked within the last year have all been friends... haha. weird. whatever.
i'm in a very happy place with james, now. now that i know where stand and possibly what to expect. i'm fine with taking it slow, as long as we take it slow together :) part of my worry was how fast the pace was going to be, and if i was going to be ready for that. i'm glad that we are taking it slow, because i think after everything i went through with my ex, i need someone who is willing to go slow so that i can pace myself out of this, because this is all really new to me. i've never really dated outside of high school except my ex bf, and that's a bad experience to go off of. haha.
i like the way i feel when i'm with james, happy. i probably maybe have never felt this just genuinely happy before, given the circumstances with my health conditions and all. he just makes me forget that things are going bad, if i had a bad test that day, if work sucked... he just makes me happy and makes me feel good about myself... and i really like that feeling. it feels awesome. it feels so awesome just to literally leave my problems at the door and feel happy. and his parents are great, they are awesome. they are so nice to me, and apparently really like me, from what james has said. his mom especially likes me :) which is yay! i've never met parents before but i guess i did well! :) i like them a lot, and i know i can talk to them about my medical stuff, and james encourages me to do so since i can't talk to my own parents about it. so it's nice to be able to talk to "adults" especially those in the medical field about my problems, that makes me feel better also.
i'm ending this now. i'm working off of 5 hours of sleep and i am exhausted. good night moon.