He has managed to break my heart again.

According to my live journal it has been 7 weeks since the last time we broke up. And today I broke up with him again. Yes, again. But this time it's for good. However, even as I type this I pray that he is realizing his wrongs and trudging the block from his house to mine in the pouring rain to tell me that he can't live with out me. But I ( Read more... )

Well, it wasn't official before but it is now. He does not want to get back together. He was trying to show me that we could be just friends again all week. It was a nice try and I respect him for his nobility. But I can't do it. I love him.

On the plus side, I know how to feel now.

I can not sleep. Well I haven't tried yet. But Mike just left so of course I'm unable to lay day ( Read more... )

Yesterday I broke up with Mike. I'm not sure I've ever felt this way before. I still talk to him more than I do to any one else. So it's hardly a break up. I feel like we're still emotionally entwined. The only difference is that I kissed him on the cheek when he left after lunch today instead of on the mouth. It's weird. He even humped my ( Read more... )

So, I realize I only post on here when I can't sleep. But luckily this time is b/c Mike picked a scary movie and I can't sleep now. I have a really over active imagination. Good news, Mad about You comes on at 5 am. Bad news I'm only up at this time b/c I can't sleep. More good news, Mike and I have really been doing great lately. I mean ( Read more... )

I've decided that LJ is good for 2 things, finding out if Danielle is still alive or not, and venting. I think we all assumed the second. Any way, I saw Danielle yesterday, so I know she is alive. So by process of deduction, I am here to vent. I'm tired. I hate people. I'm tired and I hate people. What am I tired of, well people to begin. I ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in for ever, and I hadn't really planned to ever again. But seeing as it is now 3:46 am and I'm still awake, I have nothing to do. You may be wondering why it is that I am still awake. Well I will gladly tell you this. My ever so sweet roommate whom I rescued from her old "racist" roommate, is not allowing me to sleep. It ( Read more... )

I hate men. I don't even get turned on by them anymore because they just make me feel sad aND cheap. And no I am not a lesbian! Jesus fucking christ! I'm just pissed that I can't be myself with men with out them thinking I'm easy. DOES IT SAY SLUT ON MY FACE? Cus I thought still being a virgin would be enough to fight off that misconception ( Read more... )

I am at Mike's house, as usual. I got to see Danielle today which rocked cuz I never ever ever see her anymore. She said she was going over Nick's house later, I hope she had fun. I did some HTML shit. WOOOOHOOOO! And I went to Daniel's area which was bitter sweet. I haven't been there w/ out the corner well just about ever. I walked along ( Read more... )