And another late night
So, I realize I only post on here when I can't sleep. But luckily this time is b/c Mike picked a scary movie and I can't sleep now. I have a really over active imagination. Good news, Mad about You comes on at 5 am. Bad news I'm only up at this time b/c I can't sleep. More good news, Mike and I have really been doing great lately. I mean everything has been amazing. Until tonight. We had a really good day, scary movie, but we were still enjoying each other and then it happened. I had a mood swing. I swear I'm crazy. B/c one second we're happy and joking and the next I'm telling him that he's bitter and I don't like his approach to school or business. Then he tells me that he disagrees with how I handle school. And then gives the example of me not doing every single little assignment for every class. And then I told him that I'm not going to school to work for teachers but to get good enough grades to get me into grad school or what ever I feel like doing when I'm done, which is mainly to help people, not beat other people out b/c I'm bitter that I never had any fun. And then we went silent. And I had nothing else to say. But he never gives up on me. Even when he's said something hurtful he takes it back. He said he was just responding b/c he felt attacked but he loves me and doesn't want to hurt me. In Scrubs there is a line right before JD and Eliot break up. I donno it exactly but it's kinda like "All couples have problems and fight but in couples that work there is always one of them fighting for the relationship to work." I know I'm a nerd and JD really isn't some great philosopher but it makes sense. However, he's always fighting to say the relationship when I'm shutting down. I'm just really glad he never doubts that this is right. B/c I think that I'm always protecting myself for that time when he's going to stop loving me. I'm rambling. I don't really have a complete thought on this. I guess I am still learning.