i can't believe i'm going to be nineteen on thursday. wow.

i just logged onto this journal for old times sake. i am such a livejournal neglecter.

but the new journal is kidsfallout.

life is ( Read more... )

dear friends ( Read more... )

ABBY we've had a couple of really great talks, but not nearly enough. and it's a shame that we don't see each other more often considering the close proximities of our homes. i'm not sure i can really pinpoint what it is, but when i look at you, i see something inside of you that i want to be. thanks for sharing that with me, and with everyone ( Read more... )

i read something that ryan aircraft wrote to billy in his journal yesterday, and it made me cry. the words that ryan wrote were both happy and sad, but i didn't cry tears of happiness, nor ones of sadness. but mostly ones of quiet understanding. of knowing what it feels like. and the sad thing is, if ryan feels this way, then i'm probably going ( Read more... )

i thought that the worst was over for a very long time, but it's not. and it probably will never be. my dad has liver cancer. and i don't know what i'm going to do, or how i'm going to live. so if you pray, please pray for us.

left books in car. said i was going to the library. didn't do homework. quit golf team. quit newspaper staff. got someone to cover shift. called in sick. quit without notice. told my parents i had to work. snuck out of the house. no-showed for my dentist appointment. skipped church. forgot to pray before going to bed. ignored friends ( Read more... )

when i was fifteen and sixteen, i was having a blast. i was skating and going to shows and hanging out with my friends. i wasn't taking trashy, tasteless photographs of myself and spreading them about the internet ( Read more... )

friends only. you know the drill.