SO I WONT FORGET

DAY ONEi woke up at about 2:30 after an hour of sleep (thats me being stupid stacia) and rode through providence and boston with my dad in the big truck cause he had to do some work stuff before he dropped me off at the airport. i rode in the airplane (my first plane ride) and got to detroit where the true girl in me came out and ( Read more... )

i came home from work early today. i feel sick again. i think its allergies from all the pollen and stuff. fuck springtime. fuck it all to hell ( Read more... )

today when i came home from work i felt sick to my stomach. i went to the bathroom to throw up but it just wasnt happening so i made myself vomit. wich, if youve ever done that you know, is the worst thing in the world. i threw up for about half an hour, went to sleep, and just recently woke up hungry as a bear. but i wont eat. because then ( Read more... )

my patience with people in general are at an all time low. i seriously feel like kicking everyones ass that comes in contact with me. and the very few people i wouldnt feel that way towards, dont even notice i havent been around ( Read more... )

ive become bad at being vague when i like someone. courtney and i were walking down the hallway and trevor came out of his class and stood and talked to me for a minute, and then walked away. i followed him, courtney and i stood outside the bathroom and giggled like little school girls, walked away with him behind us and he said "stacia.. did you ( Read more... )

ugh ( Read more... )

its just like you to contest wear it like a label on your breast ( Read more... )

today alex told me that he knows that chris guy from the real world chicago. he went to coyle with him and graduated with him. apparently he was really really skinny back in high school. alex sat next to him in keyboarding class where he met karen, the mother of his son. alex even went in the same limo as him to their junior prom. he had no ( Read more... )

today my father thew a chair at me, broke a glass, and screamed in my face that i am nothing, ill always be nothing, and ill never amount to anything. im worthless, useless and meaningless. and the worst part is.. i already knew all that ( Read more... )

i want to end it all. right now. death. the only way out of this mess ive made for myself. i hate myself. i hate myself. i hate myself. im a failure. why do i do this. im stupid. i hate this life.