I'm supposed to use this now ( Read more... )

I am tired of telling myself to live sometimes cause i don't really feel like it and i'm in class and i'll whisper it under my breath and scribble it between my notes and it'll all say 'live' but it'll mean 'please ( Read more... )

Today is an INSTITUTE DAY whoop. Fourday weekendtime for Columbus Day ( Read more... )

I got some cleaning up to do on this thing... I hate remembering.

Gonna try to make this less solely my angsty angst and more me. Cause life isn't all shit, yo. Firefox thinks isn't isn't a word. Gay.~

Right now, I mean lately, I've been getting back into the habit of beating myself up at the smallest imperfection -- I'm like hyperperfectionist. Very ( Read more... )

Nothing I do is good enough for my whiny, self-centered, impossible tastes. I hate that I apparently can't be happy, like it's not a fucking option. That I can go somewhere simple like a chatroom or a forum or whatever and come out feeling bad because of nothing.

Thinking about going to school next year gets me to tears. Thinking about going to ( Read more... )

I got my hair cut. It's not as short as I hoped or expected but it still looks damn good ... and pretty gender ambiguous. My friend kept applauding me because it was still feminine and she was scared it'd be too boyish -- I didn't have the heart to tell her err boyish was the point because it was her birthday party ( Read more... )

so heads up, guys, because I've finally fucking realized that no matter what I do, it will inevitably be wrong.

because i make a comment, and it's wrong. i link an article, and it's stupid. i try to defend my fucking points because they are fucking provoked, and i am wrong.

i want to help other people feel better. I keep hanging around the life ( Read more... )

So my piano recital sucked a lot.

by which I mean like the last few days, which I think is because I've been outside and walking or some other activity which distracts me enough that I don't feel like exploding the earth. But before that, the wednesday-to-wednesday week was quite possibly the worst time I've ever had ever. I keep meaning to go to my counselor but I don't like ( Read more... )

In no particular, by which I mean alphabetical, order.

Adrian + It's got these friendly sounds -- which I dunno, I like those a sounds because they're open and inviting, which I kind of ... need, cause I'm lame and bitchy.
            - AAADRIAAAAAAAN and it also reminds me of that lesbian from pw. haha, whoo.

Amos + i secretly love this name it ( Read more... )