A lot of things have changed. I went from being on the top of the game to the bench. There are so many stories i could tell from the past few months, so many things i've experienced and things i've learned. I could tell so much about how low people here can be. I've never been stupid enough to think these people were my friends, these kids, these ( Read more... )

this is gonna be short. and random. and i don't have any need to explain what i've been "up to"
But i don't know how many years i'm going to keep bitching online about how much i hate this town and how much i want to leave. 
I take so many steps in my mind to figure out everything, everything  i could fix or make better or how i want it to be. then i ( Read more... )

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Eventful activity.  chaaaa ( Read more... )

I can officially drive with a legal guardian and/or a licensed driver over the age of 25. 
wow. 
weak.sauce.

but it's something!

First day sober in a while, it's kind of funny.

I have this thing where i can only think im pretty for a few seconds then it turns into the complete opposite view about myself. david wants me to stay at his place a few days..thinkin about it but i dont want to leave my mother here alone. goin out again tonight anyway. we hung out last night. i cried about my situation for the first time. glad he ( Read more... )

There's been too much drama today to describe ( Read more... )

For some reason I have no remembrance of what happens yesterday. but i'm 98% sure i spent money...and I don't remember going out at all. I know i re-organized my room, otherwise there's just nothing. I wasn't even on anything. wtf? My room looks loads better, i'm getting rid of the computer desk and entertainment system that's out there. trying to ( Read more... )

Stealing david's weed was totally worth it. Anywho, I'm being more and more reminded that school is rapidly approaching. it's the same old familiar feeling. Every year i go in saying "this year's gonna be different. I'll want to be here, or at least won't mind it much". This never happens. Ever. I've actually barely lost any weight this summer, ( Read more... )

left last night at 10:30 pm, got home at 9:15 am. Nothing scandalous, smoked and watched a meteor shower in newport with leens and david. they're actually fun to hang out with together, i was kind of worried they wouldn't mesh. I love lena but she can be a bitch haha. I took david's weed, not sure if i'll give it back or not. depends who calls ha. ( Read more... )