things just are still the same . i know i fucked up 2 quater like badly its not like me to fuck up like taht and i cant do that anymore cause then my summer will be ruined if i need summer school and if i have summer school im really being a drop out. i need to start getting my act together i know that. but its just really hard for a person for me ( Read more... )

i dont really no what to say anymore.i hardly didnt sleep last night again i was wondering the hole night.Things suck so badly iv became someone i didnt want to come back i didnt want to think about doing drugs again and now my mind is thinking about suicide again.=( which is no good at all.Im scared of this thing people call life . im really ( Read more... )

my days keep getting longer and my nights are so depressing. i really feel like im slowing falling into piece like im slowly dieing.im not sure if its normal for someone to be this sad and expecially when i try my best to put on a fake smile and its so hard not to have a break down in school. all as i do is think about lindy and how much my life ( Read more... )

i just cant do it anymore.im not who i once was. i hate fakin a smile .i hate acting like everything is fine when nothing in my life is fine at all.everyone sees thats im depressed even when im home(lindenhurst) cause i no ill be going back to this fucking mountain place soon.i wake up every morning thinking ill be going to school in lindenhurst ( Read more... )

well anyways everyone knows that i moved and im so bored with my life. im never in the mood to do anything anymore and its so fucking sad how one person can be so happy but then all of a sudden it just totally changes. im so sick of being in my house but thats the only thing that i feel like doing nothing here is fun and nothing makes me smile. i ( Read more... )

okay so things just totally suck . i hate living here more then anything in the world and i just want to go back to lindenhurst. I miss everyone so much . I miss julian more then anything it totally sucks that i cant see him until like christmas break cause my parents fucking suck. He really makes me so happy more then anything and i love him with ( Read more... )

well its early in the morring and im sitting up watching my sister and sandra think i wonder what their dreaming about ?? anyway iv bin depressed again and i hate it to much i dont get the point why im always fucking sad and always thinking and always crying. Life has bin very hard to go threw the past 2 and a half years and i cant stand the pain ( Read more... )

3-4-05 was the best friggin night of my life I LOVE YOU SOO FUCKING MUCH <||||3333333333333

hey...
well school sucks soo muchh......I miss losts of people. VICKEE if your reading this i miss you soo much(( we need to hang out ))
i have been doing nothing lately notthing at all. people piss me off in school soo much and at home.

depressed what else is new ( Read more... )