when is time for me to fianlly go back home forever and never return here.i miss all my friends soo much and im completly miserable without thme by myside.i miss all our memories soo much i miss laughin and sometimes the fights and the tears.it hurts so much to be apart from them. but each and everyone one of you need to understand its hard for me ( Read more... )

well nothing has changed a pit.iv bin a real bitch lately to everyone and i hate it so much.im just so mad at myself for everything.i wanna go home so badly where i belong.i havent gettin along with noone. i just wanna be happy im sick of hidin this deep depression i just want my joy and happiness back. im tryin my best to fit in here and tryin my ( Read more... )

the past almost three weeks was fuckin awsome begin home in lindy i had so much fun and never took a smile off my face i had a ball ..i just didnt wanna leave i hate this fuckin mountain place soo badly i just wanna stay where i belong.i really just cant stand my parents i really cant i hate feeling like this.when im in lindy and when im here its ( Read more... )

i just wannaa give it upp i want it to come to end already. when does all this pain stop when does everything go away im losin everything.my family hates me soo much noone cares about me anymore i care so much for my family and they just dont listen to me..iv bin soo happy since iv bin on longisland with everyone and smiling all the time. my best ( Read more... )

last night i cried all night even when i was on the phone with saul i was trying to hide it so much. i wish he was here with me at all times i really cant wait to i come back out there i miss caite soo much i just miss everyone like hell........ school fuckin sucks i like totaly just fuckin givin up im like rolling ova and dieing im soo fed up with ( Read more... )

well iv bin trying to do a little betta with my life im just working around with life like i dont care. i have a feeling im going to summer school im giving up i dont really get it cause iv always bin strong with myself but im melting away im not myself i feel like i dont even know who i am anymore. everyone knows im fuckin miserable and it fuckin ( Read more... )

umm yea well this has bin another boring fuckin week i thought i was going today but no that didnt happen.i really want to see saul cait and danny and them and i wanted to see other people too but some people need to understand that im only there for one day i hate makin choosing who im seeing.i really wish people can come here sometimes cause it ( Read more... )

i dont know im feeling a little bit betta. i just hate how noone has no faith in me.its always about vic joey and nicole and how proud my family is of vic and she is gonna amount to something and im not cause i have serious problems. im trying to do betta in school i realy am and im tryin my best i just cant wait to finally prove mommy and daddy ( Read more... )

i lost the only thing that made me happy today. i wish i could take it back i didnt mean to leave him im not sure if i still do if i did then why im i crying since it happened why do i pretend that im happy. im really stupid cause all these fucking things going threw my fuckin head.. i really hope he dont find someone else cause i kno i dont want ( Read more... )

i just dont know what i want anymore. like sometimes i feel like im just by myself i hate being alone but thats what sometimes it feels like.i really just dont know what i want anymore this hole thing with me moving is fucking with my head cause i wouldnt always be thinkin the things i think and i wouldnt be fuckin up how im fucking up. im just ( Read more... )