Going to Italy tomorrow and I cannot seem to finish packing and I have pneumonia.  I cannot wait for the sun and to be all sunny and hopefully get tan. Looking through facebook I figured out that a girl I went to middle and high school with did a lot of coke, went to rehab, is having a baby. It's too wierd. I just keep thinking about how many ( Read more... )

Last night was almost magical. Libby, Kristina, and I went to Salisbury beach and walked around and ate dinner and then laid under the stars for hours waiting for fireworks. Stars always bring me back to camp. And then they brought me to Grammy and Julie and then I just thought about my life and all the people I love who love me and all the things ( Read more... )

Long runs and dates with my roommates. I picked up Brittany from the airport on Tuesday after work and I hadn't even realized how much I missed her until we were back in her room just chatting away, me laying on her bed and her showing me all her clothes, just like always. I feel like every weekend is as much fun as the weekend before it. I try not ( Read more... )

I don't even know where I stand right now in my life. I'm happy. God, I'm finally happy everyday. I swear its this job because I've never felt so damn fulfilled. But I'm so alive in the sense that I feel happy and sad and all the emotions and its a beautiful thing. But I want to feel love and lust and lose control, too. But I can't, I don't feel it ( Read more... )

I feel like I keep having the same thoughts and coming back to the same conclusions and I wonder if I've ever really grown up all that much. Or do I just change the way I live but think the same things? I still get stressed about money and finding a good job for the fall and what I'm going to do next summer and what will I do when I graduate. I ( Read more... )

This weekend has been so long and so unreal. It really epitomizes what Boston has to offer in the summertime. Friday: Went out to dinner with Lauryn and Sam in hopes of drinking at the bar after wards. Had a butterfinger martini and it was like candy in a cup. We got escorted out of the bar, but we looked hot and I had my sexy heels on so we ( Read more... )

Man, I love college. And I love drinking. Man, I love smoking and I love dancing. I love hanging out on roof tops and playing beer pong. Man, I love college and I love Boston.

Today could not have been a better day. 

Went back to Fairfield and it was so weird because it was all exactly the same. And I feel as though I've changed so much since I was last there, especially last summer. And yet there was everyone doing the same day-to-day routine as if a whole year hadn't just passed. I wonder if I'll be there next summer, and if so I wonder what I'll be like by ( Read more... )

So I guess I'm twenty now. I don't think I really like being twenty, but I know that I have very little choice in the matter. I feel like I'm not quite old enough to be twenty, I always figured that by twenty I would be an adult or something. But I guess in many ways I am. I've been thinking a lot about how I got to where I am, and if I've made the ( Read more... )

Ireland took me to the movies and held my hand and it was so nice and made me remember that it's good to have something more than just sex. That eventually I can do it all over again. Not right now, but eventually. I can't get over how much I love my job and that it grows on me more and more each day, and that I finally feel like I'm going ( Read more... )