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Went back to Fairfield and it was so weird because it was all exactly the same. And I feel as though I've changed so much since I was last there, especially last summer. And yet there was everyone doing the same day-to-day routine as if a whole year hadn't just passed. I wonder if I'll be there next summer, and if so I wonder what I'll be like by then.
I got my new planner for this year. It's so fresh and new and I can't wait to start my year and start keeping track of my assignments and sorority meetings and hopefully all the work I'll be doing at whatever job I can hopefully get by September. I have only very recently contemplated medical school. I never really thought of myself as a doctor, but I know how smart I am and even more importantly, how hard I can work. And I have a little while to figure it all out, but I know that if it's what I still really want to do in a couple years I would be able to.
I went for the best run in the rain today. It was pouring and I never felt like stopping, and I've been thinking so much about so many things the past two days that I needed to just stop thinking and start feeling my body work hard and just give my thoughts a rest. I did not sleep well last night after all the pasta and sangria, I just hope tonight will be better. I had a picnic with Rachel in Edgerton Park and it put some things into a new perspective, and while that doesn't change my life as it stands, I know that I'm doing all the right things. And everyday I feel thankful for what I have and the friends I have in my life. And some days I'm disapointed in people I thought were my friends but aren't quite always there for me when I need them. And in the end I just know that I have control over my life and hold the key to my own happiness. My happiness which consists of new planners, avocados, tomato soup, pandora, starbucks, sleepovers, stars, picnics, runs, sexy compliments, gatorade, and roller coasters.
I got my new planner for this year. It's so fresh and new and I can't wait to start my year and start keeping track of my assignments and sorority meetings and hopefully all the work I'll be doing at whatever job I can hopefully get by September. I have only very recently contemplated medical school. I never really thought of myself as a doctor, but I know how smart I am and even more importantly, how hard I can work. And I have a little while to figure it all out, but I know that if it's what I still really want to do in a couple years I would be able to.
I went for the best run in the rain today. It was pouring and I never felt like stopping, and I've been thinking so much about so many things the past two days that I needed to just stop thinking and start feeling my body work hard and just give my thoughts a rest. I did not sleep well last night after all the pasta and sangria, I just hope tonight will be better. I had a picnic with Rachel in Edgerton Park and it put some things into a new perspective, and while that doesn't change my life as it stands, I know that I'm doing all the right things. And everyday I feel thankful for what I have and the friends I have in my life. And some days I'm disapointed in people I thought were my friends but aren't quite always there for me when I need them. And in the end I just know that I have control over my life and hold the key to my own happiness. My happiness which consists of new planners, avocados, tomato soup, pandora, starbucks, sleepovers, stars, picnics, runs, sexy compliments, gatorade, and roller coasters.