Sitting here listening to Macy Grays song "I TRY", havent heard it in forever and found it fitting for whats on my mind right now ( Read more... )

So, this is the fifth time I have tried to get on here for three weeks now. The internet service has been reallllly crummy. I am not paying for it, thus I kind of can't do anything about it ( Read more... )

Its been awhile since I wrote on here. I have been so overwhelmed these last couple of weeks that my emotions have been a roller coaster of hell. One minute I am bitching about something or another, and the next I am crying. Still havent had the baby and I will be 41 weeks this Thursday. I go in for an appointment tomorrow at 11:30, for a stress ( Read more... )

My birthday did get better...and the best gift I got? A little green candy light-saber. There is a story behind it, and that is why I loved it so much. When Nate and I had hooked up for the first time, he had left his lunch bag at my cousins house. And so, I left him a little note about the wonderful time I had with him, and a little red candy ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to me. I have a little rant to make. Couldnt sleep at all last night due to a belly ache and running on only two hours of sleep. Hannah and Nate both fought like cats and dogs this morning and boy did that just tick me off, as they were complaining of being tired. Ummmm hello...two hours of sleep and very pregnant, and I am not the ( Read more... )

Today is the day before my 26th birthday, but I am kinda doing the celebrate by myself thing! Lol, what a loner. No, it really isn't that bad! I woke up at 6 to get the child to the bus by 7, then went back to sleep with my man and our cat Thora by my side. We woke up at 10, played with the cat for awhile until the baby started to kick the living ( Read more... )

Last night got on the phone with my dad....and expected a nice conversation as they have been pleasant for some time, but last night he was down right rude to me and put me down quite a bit. He called me a fatty compared to my two sisters, and said I have always been the ugly duckling out of his daughters. Then he gets off on how his marriage to ( Read more... )

Yes, the title says it, I am now at 38 weeks, well officially am 38 weeks as of this Thursday. I have finally gotten several things done and out of the way. I am exhausted from it all, and ready for bed soon. Dinner is done, kid is fed and has both bath and homework done. Now just to wait until Nate gets off, so that I can go get him picked up. ( Read more... )

No I am not missing. I have been here, just not posting. The last month or so has been beyond stressful, that I didnt find time to write, read or even think. Ok, I thought, but too much about things that really didn't matter. I will be leaving the drama and such out of this entry, I am in too much of a good mood to want to write about it. I am ( Read more... )

Damn my hormones!!!! Damn my insecuritites....and I swear all of that including my depression add up to one pile of me being bipolar. Ok so I don't even care if that makes sense or not. I am just so irratated by myself and need to find a way to release all of this. i really don't understand me. I could give it all over to God, but today I am ( Read more... )