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Colds, babies and self-esteem and ect.
I finally have moment to relax. The kids and I have all been dealing with colds and this is not fun. I have been spared the fever, while they have not. I feel bad for them, its always rough with this ( Read more... ) -
OF THINGS
Well today is another rainy dreary day..ugh, I wish the sun would shine and I could enjoy some warmth because boy am I cold! On top of that, the kids are a bit grumpy and I know it's because it's one of those sleepy kind of days ( Read more... ) -
Hero or Heroes?
I feel quite happy and hopeful today. Unlike yesterday...yesterday was just a bad day altogether, with my 6 year old throwing a fit in the dentist office and the baby hating being in the car, and me seeing men, whose wives seem to me so very happy, checking out other woman when they arent looking, which caused an arguement between Nate and I. I ( Read more... ) -
Of Thoughts and Such
For the last two days all I have done is yard work, from sun up to sun down and in between babies naps and feedings....I got so much done, and yet not enough....I don't understand how pople can let their home and yard get so bad. The good news is that I discovered how good yard work and gardening makes me feel. I've slept soundly both nights ( Read more... ) -
Today
I have achieved much today! I love when I feel accomplished and I can tell you that I rarely feel this way. Got our taxes filed(getting enough back to get TONS of things done that are needed.), ate breakfast out, went to the library and got the second book to the Cronus Chronicles by Anne Ursu (young adult book but quite entertaining!), got ( Read more... ) -
The past and the present
Hello LJ!!!!! I am super stoked to be back! A lot has been going on in my life since the birth of little Jesse and the chaos here at the house has subsided with the removal of the nieces and nephews. We still live with Nates parents as his mom is going in for a hip replacement and his dad recently had yet another stroke. It was best for us to ( Read more... ) -
Things on my mind
This past week I have discovered that I am really suffering from insomnia. Two nights I was up for 24 hours and again tonight I can not sleep, or this morning I mean. It could be because my allergies are causing me fits, and I know its not caffeine as I am lucky I get a tea or coffee once a week. The other night I saw that my sister Tiffrany was up ( Read more... ) -
Hello!
Well, its been a week since I have been on here, actually a little over a week. Nate and I got into a huge fight over his birthday weekend and then went to bible study....since then things have been going GREAT. He has agreed that I will continue to breastfeed until Jesse is 3 months old and then I will go back on my anti depressent, as it will ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
So, its been awhile again....no surprise as I continue to get stressed and exhausted and never find time....Maybe its because in the last week I have been taking care of five kids between the ages of 5-15 and thats not including my newborn and five year old. The reason why Ive had this go on could take days to explain. I will shorten it by saying ( Read more... ) -
Put Me Out Of The Misery I Create
The title says it all.....I am miserable and don't want to believe in romance anymore. I am an insecure drama queen...the only love I need or want is the love I feel or my children...the rest is just built on falsehoods.....falsehoods that we speak....yeah I cant even continue in this pain. I want to escape. Why did dad fuck me up? Why did I let ( Read more... )