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So, its been awhile again....no surprise as I continue to get stressed and exhausted and never find time....Maybe its because in the last week I have been taking care of five kids between the ages of 5-15 and thats not including my newborn and five year old. The reason why Ive had this go on could take days to explain. I will shorten it by saying it involves Nates brother being an idiot and losing custody of his kids to his parents and Nates other sister going into surgery and having something go wrong. So Nates parents have been with her at ICU, Nate at work, his bro not able to be around the kids and his wife being lazy and NOT wanting to take care of them. So I...too nice to say no Ashley, takes care of them. I am exhuasted, i want to cry...I want to say so much more.! I want us to run away! I just need a good nights rest....then I WOULD BE OK!
Jesse is just adorable! He makes me so VERY happy! he's almost 6 weeks old! Holy mackeral!
And Hannah shes goofy, she has a spider in the kitchen that she wont let anyone kill and don't worry its a non poisnous one.( I am a bliever in the "a good spider is a dead one" theory.) She said the other day "wow that spider is normous", meaning enormous. So since then he has recieved the name normous.....weird!
In the last week I have had several nightmares..the one that really got me to thinking was one that I believe to be a sign. Nate is always telling me that I need to not be so insecure and such with him because all I am doing is chopping our relationship down...killing the love we do have. Well in this dream I am driving the car and he is in the passanger seat as we drive across a bridge. The phone rings and I go to answer it and drop it. As I try to reach for it Nate is telling me he will drive so that we dont get hurt, but I wont listen and we end up going off a bridge into water. As the car falls in slow motion I am screaming his name...the dream ends there because at the point I am trying to pull myself out of the dream and I am actually screaming for Nate and hes trying to wake me up...Ugh! Anyone else have dreams like that? I have a general idea what I was being told through that dream, that I would drown our relationship if I dont listen to Nate about my insecurities and such. Any thoughts?
Well I am going to get off of here now, I will try to write more in the next few days. Tomorrow is Nates 38th bday and Sunday we start bible study with my Aunt Wanda and cousin Amber and their spouses!!! Woohoo~!
Jesse is just adorable! He makes me so VERY happy! he's almost 6 weeks old! Holy mackeral!
And Hannah shes goofy, she has a spider in the kitchen that she wont let anyone kill and don't worry its a non poisnous one.( I am a bliever in the "a good spider is a dead one" theory.) She said the other day "wow that spider is normous", meaning enormous. So since then he has recieved the name normous.....weird!
In the last week I have had several nightmares..the one that really got me to thinking was one that I believe to be a sign. Nate is always telling me that I need to not be so insecure and such with him because all I am doing is chopping our relationship down...killing the love we do have. Well in this dream I am driving the car and he is in the passanger seat as we drive across a bridge. The phone rings and I go to answer it and drop it. As I try to reach for it Nate is telling me he will drive so that we dont get hurt, but I wont listen and we end up going off a bridge into water. As the car falls in slow motion I am screaming his name...the dream ends there because at the point I am trying to pull myself out of the dream and I am actually screaming for Nate and hes trying to wake me up...Ugh! Anyone else have dreams like that? I have a general idea what I was being told through that dream, that I would drown our relationship if I dont listen to Nate about my insecurities and such. Any thoughts?
Well I am going to get off of here now, I will try to write more in the next few days. Tomorrow is Nates 38th bday and Sunday we start bible study with my Aunt Wanda and cousin Amber and their spouses!!! Woohoo~!