Wow, it's almost 2008 and I can't believe that I'm sitting in the position that I am in. Christmas just passed and it just didn't feel right. It felt just like any other cold winter day. No presents. No singing. No family. No Spud. I think that was what made this Christmas so dark ( Read more... )

I'm in totaly shock that I some how managed to remember the password to this thing. So a lot has happened since my last entry but I think I write these to give myself piece of mind more than to inform others ( Read more... )

I remember writing in this thing every God damned day. I got back from Europe not too long ago. I was in London, England. Amsterdam, Holland. Some fuckin where in Switzerland. Mt. Goar, Germany. Endsbrook, Austria. Venice, Rome, and Florence Italy, then Nice and Paris France. It was fantastic. After Paris I fewl back to Rome to stay with ( Read more... )

Long time since I’ve written anything. Prom is coming up. Probably going to go with my ex-girlfriend. Why not? Don’t really plan of having fun. As much as I love her, she wasn’t my first choice ( Read more... )

What hurts the most is that it's unbearable.

There are so many things that I am not saying, not seeing, not addressing, not because I can’t, but because I don’t want too. Chriss says I can’t hide forever. She’s right but I hate that because that makes me wrong. I really hate being wrong ( Read more... )

So Michael came to see me after school yesterday. It was kind of bad. No blood though. My boyfriend was there to make sure that things didn’t get out of hand. Well it was supposed to be my boyfriend. That multiplied into Spud, Tim, Shane, Danny, and Alex’s brass knuckles decided to join us. When Michael first pulled around he asked me to get ( Read more... )

So life has been dandy lately. I went up to go see some friends and there were four kids there. It kind of made me sad but I tried not to dwell on it ( Read more... )

Kourtnie, I miss you. I need you here. Help me

I wrote this on paper earlier ( Read more... )