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i've started to believe i may be a good person and even a competent person, but i think i will never believe i am worthy of love because i am rarely treated as if i am worthy of love. my friends treat me as if i am and i am very grateful to them ( Read more... ) -
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i'm definitely at the point where no one's gonna notice when i die so that's uhhhh a success -
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what i want from tomorrow is a renewed enthusiasm about doing this for a living. i want the feeling of having adequately prepared and thus the ability to carry out my work competently, even when it's challenging and i'm inexperienced. i will not be fearful and i will not hold out for external validation. i want the satisfaction of knowing that ( Read more... ) -
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i'm really feeling rough and quite nervous about placement tomorrow. first thing in the morning i have to do an informal bedside assessment on a new patient i know nothing about and whom i've never met. i also have barely made a dent in the pile of work my PE has asked me to do. i'm trying so goddamn hard. it pays off sometimes. 100% on my ( Read more... ) -
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i'm in a downswing. i feel lonely, unsure, disconnected, nervous. in these times i have to put my head down and just try to work hard until people want my energy in their lives again. i was very lucky to have a calm and loving new year's day with pear and have lots of good chats ( Read more... ) -
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it is possible to talk to your partner about things?? and resolve them?? and no one has to run away ( Read more... ) -
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you're home writing songs for him while he's out drinking with his beautiful ex girlfriend
he gets a drink and you've made something. it doesn't feel any better knowing that. i want a drink -
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if it's all ok i shouldn't be feeling revulsion and anxiety should i -
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lots and lots of suicidal ideation over the weekend but i just have to remember today i think ( Read more... ) -
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i don't want to see or be seen by thin people