Solo and ensemble is a bitch. Plain and simple fact is that the groups will never sound up to the level I would like to hear. The ones from Winds sound great, but other than that it's pretty disappointing. I guess I'm coming to a philosophical turning point here ( Read more... )

It has been so long since I have written a single thing in this. I am going to make an honest effort to give it another go. If for no other reason, it will help me get my thoughts together for self-improvement ( Read more... )

Well, College Gameday just came on TV and I am so thankful that I am watching it in my own apartment on my couch. Last weekend, I was watching it from the comfort of a bed in the Emergency Room at Mercy Fairfield Hospital. I got really sick last week and had Amy take me in on Saturday morning. Long story short, I either got food poisoning or E. ( Read more... )

So much work on my desk lately, but it's because I like to front load everything. I have so many things set up the way that I prefer from the start as opposed to last year picking up in mid-year and trying to prepare for contest/concert while getting certain things straight. Things I am happy about with Freshman bands ( Read more... )

Well, this past week was busy as hell, but I got a lot done. So much start up is involved for the whole year right off the bat. I hope that the hard work up front pays off for the year. I am spending tons of time getting the "structure" of band classes in place ( Read more... )

Well, so much has happened this weekend and it was quite stressful. But, it all pales in comparison the hardest news of the weekend. Amy's mom's cousin passed away due to a heart attack and is the same age as Amy's mom. I only met him once, I believe, but I know it's still rough on Amy's family and especially her mom's family ( Read more... )

Holy crap...
So much is happening all at once. I can't even begin. But it seems to be coming back to an even keel. I think I tend to overreact lately because of all the Wagner, I've been listening to.

Lately, I'm starting to get huge anxiety attacks for no reason whatsoever. Yesterday, I was on the phone with Amy and my mind just started running through all these "worst case scenarios" ranging from the tiniest (did i feed the dog?) to the largest (am I really happy?). It just felt like the walls were closing in around me and I was having ( Read more... )

This has been a really long summer. Just like most of my friends, summer is the time where having fun and relaxing become just as hard as having a job full time during the summer too. I won't recount all of my journeys here, but will give some highlights ( Read more... )

I will follow that last post in very ironic fashion ( Read more... )