Ted Shaffer... Why did you call me??

I don't remember ever not looking forward to Christmas.

How can a person long for home so badly when there really is no home for them to return to??...

He sat alone at lunch breaks, because he was the new guy ( Read more... )

tonight i wanna cry

Why does he affect me? He said he would be at church, and he wasn't. And I just bawled my way through it. But why? I just wish he could be a good father to his son. He is just a user junkie manipulater.

Well I have my son back now. He is here, trying to go to sleep. And I am waiting to smoke. Clayton said he would call earlier. He never did. Not that I wanted to talk to him. Just another thing he said and didn't mean. And now I am bothered. And am up late. I actually haven't had too many problems sleeping so far. I just feel so used ( Read more... )

So here I am. Never really thought I'd be here again. And my son is there with him. I just pray he doesn't turn into the liar that he is ( Read more... )

It is very late. And we have to get up for church in the morning. Johnna just left. We talked a lot. We always do. It was a good day. She had A's party at the park today and we had a water fight. It was lots of fun. Then I went to gramma's. That was fun too. H got to play with S. I love them all.

So what were you going to do, huh? Just go there and explain everything, and then what?! What would happen then? You are such a fool.

What's gone is gone.

So Clayton was actually nice today. Granted, we weren't around each other for very long. But still, that always throws me off. Isn't that odd that his kindness would be abnormal.

And have I mentioned that I hate swim suits??