Unfortunately.

My beloved Alpaca Lips did not follow through as I was so desperately hoping.

Obviously. Since I'm making an update here.

There's a lot I'd like to write about, but I just don't feel ready for that right now. Honestly, the only thing holding me together at the moment is my unending and apparent desperate quest for laughter. I' ( Read more... )

After playing phone tag with the appointment coordinator for new patients, I finally got to talk to her and she has set me up an appointment with a doctor/therapist that works primarily in the fields of depression and grief. I go next week on the 22nd at 2:15. Since the place is in a part of Greenville about which I'm almost completely ignorant, ( Read more... )

I forgot to write earlier that Diane is interested in buying the gun, because she and Bobby are having some problems and there is a chance that she may end up living by herself. She's a tad afraid of doing this without protection, which is the only reason Aunt Tudi had a gun in the first place, as a protective measure for our always completely ( Read more... )

After two weeks of immobilisation, I'm finally doing laundry and the dishes. When I went to get a dish cloth, I found Aunt Tudi's gun and the bullets. Diane is coming over to get it. I did call her. I'm trying.

So, where to begin ( Read more... )

I've had a lot of people asking me lately if I were okay. The answer is No. I am not okay ( Read more... )

Haunted by the dead. Lonely. Thinking this will never stop. Stayed awake for approximately 31 hours. Kept seeing the dead. Got in my car to drive. Ran into a ditch. Got a ticket. Car towed. Passed out sometime yesterday. Cat got me up at 5 this morning. I thought Aunt Tudi was gonna be on the couch when I went to let the cat out. She ( Read more... )

I guess I need to admit something to myself ( Read more... )

I'd say I'm happy about this, but I'd really rather just have Aunt Tudi back, if only for an hour...to apologise for everything I did that I shouldn't have done and everything I didn't do that I should have. I'd gladly live in complete abject poverty, go hungry, lose my home, my animal friends, EVERYTHING...just for an hour...ten minutes. A ( Read more... )

David Bowie is just a genius. For someone to think up the song 'Fashion' has to be a freakin' genius.

That's not what this post is about. It's just sort of random something.

Oh oh BIG NEWS. I'm writing a Joker fanfic. I need a vacation from everything else and I did promise acook a Femme Joker story. Not sure how it's gonna turn out, but I'm ( Read more... )