Comments | thehobbit: trans* and medical deficiencies.

thehobbit

trans* and medical deficiencies.

Apr 16, 2012 14:22

So I'm a relatively hairy person. Always have been. My arms have lightened up as I've gotten older but my happy trail has gotten darker. Because I hate warming up wax I've taken to shaving my upper lip and I pluck several hairs on my face that aren't located in my eyebrows ( Read more... )

bullshit, another boring entry, please let me talk about myself, body parts

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anonymous April 16 2012, 19:03:25 UTC

A rose by another name smells just as sweet, my dear. Do what you feel you need to in order to be comfortable with yourself. Keep it simple & stay true. That is all there is.
Love you,
Akiko

thehobbit April 17 2012, 00:17:04 UTC

Thank you ma'am. I'm just going to keep being me which means well nothing really. To me that's the funny thing about presentation. So much of what is known about the things around us are based on our own perceptions. The only way I can tell anyone that I am male is to shake them and scream I AM MALE. It's not worth the effort.

It just means that if anyone sees me go green or red when talking about lady things that I do not understand (I am thinking about getting my first facial and I don't know how to feel about that) it's because in my head I don't understand it. I mean, a lot of people like to tell me I'm not a man and it's possible to be masculine and a woman but it's not that. It's not something that's easy to explain so I don't. This is the closest to coming out I've ever done.

And even then I'm pretty sure people will think it's bullshit. So it is.

pleasesupriseme April 17 2012, 02:41:23 UTC

I was having a long talk with my mum and her best friend Becky tonight while knitting. Basically, Becky goes to a church that is christian but run by a two openly gay men who are partners. Most of the church's members are in some way tied to the gay community, whether they're out, trans*, or a friend or family member of one of the former ( ... )

thehobbit April 17 2012, 03:09:12 UTC

So after talking to Ian we agreed I'm bigender or gender fluid. It's not exactly two separate identities just that sometimes I'm one or the other. This is the first time I've ever broached my being trans* in public and I kind of want to vomit. A little. It's also weird to realize it makes my partners gay sometimes. Weird. But I'd love to rawr. I miss you and you are too far forever.

pleasesupriseme April 17 2012, 06:07:04 UTC

You get used to making straight folks be in a same sex relationship thing. It was weird when the Fiance and I were working things out after transition.
-Chelsea

thehobbit April 17 2012, 06:38:01 UTC

The bonus is that Mike recognizes he would totally be gay if he could just like penis. I do not have a penis nor do I really want to use a penis (I don't get as much sexual gratification and I has a working vagina so...yay just put things in me and stuff!) so he lucks out in general. Though I'd love to actually own a package because penises are awesome forever. The end.

Also I think you can log in through facebook to comment on LJ now.

anonymous April 17 2012, 03:25:38 UTC

Hello lovely. I rarely comment on LJ, but for you, oh kindred spirit, I make exceptions. This post sounds more like you are trying to work it out in your head rather than how you relate to the people around you in gendered terms so I will address it as such. The thing about gender is that whether or not we put a stamp on it to signify which team we are part of does not invalidate your own gender experience. These things are personal journeys that we all go through. For instance, I've identified as female for the past 8 years, but as I've grown into my own womanhood I realized that I am never going to be a prissy lady. That is my experience and it is as valid as your own. Sometimes I think these things can't be figured out, but they have to be experienced in a way that brings meaning to your own life ( ... )

thehobbit April 17 2012, 06:35:11 UTC

Well, the difficult thing is that when I have this conversation with people about feeling male, like a man, etc I often get "well you can be a female and masculine". What I'm feeling is different and persistent. Not persistent enough to want to undergo surgeries or hormone therapies but persistent enough to feel wrong in my skin and in my relationships and my interactions and in general ( ... )

finding_helena April 17 2012, 13:55:05 UTC

Good on you for writing this. I think you should be whatever feels right for you. As for "changing the body God gave you", well, God wouldn't have made you THIS way if it were wrong, kwim?

thehobbit April 18 2012, 02:21:26 UTC

Well, thank the stars for my significant other. He jokingly told me, "WHY DIDN'T YOU MENTION THIS BEFORE BABIES?!" But in all seriousness we discussed what if I HAD gone through surgery, etc, and he understood how unbelievably lazy I am/how hard it would be to find a significant other and this is why I am ever so thankful for him and my trans* friends who ARE and HAVE transitioned and it's just...whooo. So much.

But no, I know I'm fine as I am. It's just interesting to have language to discuss it outside of, "Hey I get this sounds nuts and all, but I think I'm a dude sometimes. I dunno".