i think i'm on an airplane because when i close my eyes, all i hear is that roar of crash landings and the irony of hollow metal wings trying to be graceful as birds who were meant to fly ( Read more... )

i've got do something. i need some escape, desperately. a little postmodern escapism, if you will. i just spent half an hour screaming in my apartment and pacing around yelling and flipping out because i was convinced that a song had disappeared on a cd that i knew it was on. thirty minutes of believing that this song left me, that this songs ( Read more... )

in five minutes i'll be fine again for a while, but right now the inside of my head feels like Niagara Falls without the noise, just this mist and churning and no real sense of where earth ends and heaven begins.

brandon.

i wish i had a black eye.
maybe some cuts and bruises.
you know, get fucked up a little.
anyone up for a little bareknuckle boxing?
brandon.

"there's this rumor going around school right now"
"really?"
"yeah. word has it that god smokes cigarettes."
"jason, please don't..."
"also, and this is so weird, god drinks and he does drugs. i mean, he invented the things. but the funny thing is, he's exactly the same drunk as sober ( Read more... )

you see, i do this thing where i refuse to talk about things that aren't really important to me. really important like...you know, the things that define me i guess. the things that i want people to know and remember about me, i suppose ( Read more... )

i could talk about my emotional state right now- which is rather shaky, really- but i'm not going to ( Read more... )

making friends is exciting, i love my voice teacher (she said that i can sing good in my private lesson tonight!), and
oh my god damn motherfucking godforget cassettes is touring with ...and you will know us by the trail of dead ( Read more... )

these past few days have been really important.
some of the best and worst of my life.
i'm thankful so very very gracious.
i already said that last night was to me one of the best nights we've ever spent together.
but only after it was hands down the worst.
i felt like i could read her like a book.
and that book was all short stories with tragic ( Read more... )

i don't believe in biting my tongue anymore ( Read more... )