I have planned so many times to update this, but I never find myself near a computer or in a writing mode when the thoughts strike me ( Read more... )

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Went to T's apartment last night for the second in a night of one-night stands. Judging by the response, I'd say she was very happy, but there was no reciprocation whatsoever. Rather, she apologized for an up early to work, told me "I'll make it up to you", asked if I would mind if she nodded off, and thus ended the night. She told me I could ( Read more... )

I am my own worst enemy ( Read more... )

I dare say this may be my first happy entry in a long time ( Read more... )

The baking is temporarily done. Hot crusty pockets of meat or cabbage in bite-size bits ( Read more... )

I don't feel like working or smiling or eating or doing really all that much of anything ( Read more... )

A Thanksgiving vacation home has done wonders for me. First Thanksgiving with the family in nine years. One of the things it really gave me is perspective. I watched my mother in just a few short hours get stressed out by things that are, in general, inherently unstressful ... a mouse in the garden planters, clogged storm drains. Things that ( Read more... )

I am so angry all the time. I keep trying to take deep breaths, just forget about all of the parts of life that frustrate me, but it is just so hard. I remember in better times it was so easy to see the good. Good weather, good food, relaxation with friends ... it all seemed in abundance. Now all I see are the irritating parts of my roomates, ( Read more... )

Tonight is another low night. And yet it followed an otherwise happy day. I sat out in sun, took a small bike ride, hung out with a friend, got groceries to cook a Thanksgiving meal tomorrow with friends, saw the end of an unexpected fireworks display while sitting on my roof ( Read more... )