I had my interview. It seemed to go fine, although I felt "off". I think that was because some of the questions were about why I wanted to leave and take a new job, and that was kind of hard for me to justify to myself, much less someone else. It's a cool job for someone. I just don't think the pros outweigh the cons for me ( Read more... )

I had a plan. It involved getting to 5 years of state service and then finding something very different to do with my life, something that I enjoy more and that makes me feel less confined (I am a wild creature, not very well suited to an office, and I've been in offices for 11 years). The 5 years is so that I am vested in the state retirement ( Read more... )

The thing about mood and well being is things can change so slowly over time you might actually forget how it feels to feel good if you are very slowly sliding into depression. I took that extra quarter of Celexa yesterday to help my back, and the intense muscle tightness went away almost immediately (and revealed that I still have a weird crick in ( Read more... )

I kind of forgot, once again, that I even have a Livejournal and that I have interesting friends who posts things here. It seems I also forgot that I was attempting to record my attempt to go off SSRIs here. My last post was August 5th, and I was down to a quarter dose and doing well by taking two fish oil pills per day along with 150 mg of ( Read more... )

I bought one of those pill containers, the type that old people use to portion out the ungodly number of prescriptions most of them take daily. I did it because cutting pills every night is tedious, and because I'm a bad vitamin taker. The only reason I take my antidepressant and birth control regularly is fear: fear of the crazy and fear of a baby ( Read more... )

Wow, sandalwood oil really seems to be an amazing panacea. On Kit's advice I put it on my climbing-related blister-callouses last night, and today they're nothing but flat red dots. Amazing!

Thank you for the roller-tube of birthday awesome, Sheilagh. :)

Please consider voting for my friends to win a Pettie award for their blog post on O'Malley, the cat. Nikki and Ashley saved this guy from a terrible death on the open road. To win would mean a lot to them. Go to http://dogtime.com/petties.htm​l and choose "I Love Rescue Animals" under ( Read more... )

For this post at any rate, and yes, I've been catching up on friends' posts. Livejournal is quieter and less instantly gratifying for that social blurt desire than Facebook, but that is exactly what I'm enjoying about it ( Read more... )

Monkey Mind, according to Wikipedia, is a Buddhist term meaning "unsettled; restless; capricious; whimsical; fanciful; inconstant; confused; indecisive; uncontrollable". I've come across this term in books(notably, Natalie Goldberg) and in chatting with Buddhist friends. Basically, it's a name for the part of our thinking that can be quite creative ( Read more... )

The thing is, Facebook is so much easier. And the twitter-ish-length status update field allows one to say something without feeling one must write an essay ( Read more... )